You know you did it...I'm gone

[st0rmyeyes]

Some people have been served shit on a platter for so long that they just hang around and become comfortable with that fact. They become so consumed in that same life that, that environment becomes some sick normalcy to them. Well I am not going to be one of those people. I'm not living in a disfunctional home anymore and I'm definitely not going to stick around knowing that the only real happiness,help,love, I had is gone. I think if I just get outta here and keep my head up and get the things accomplished that I need to that everything will turn out much better for my son and myself. I'm gonna finish school and I'm going to get a job and stick with it. I'm dead serious this time. I don't want this life and moving out of amandas house back into my moms (and losing josh..forever =/ ) made me realize how real this is and how much I really dont want it. I put forth as much effort as humanly possible to change these factors and still nothing has changed. I've gone from one extremity to the next. One problem to the next and the next one is always larger then the first. So I guess if you were in my situation the only way to better things and bring about change is to completely detach yourself from the situation because this stuff just roots so deep and would take years to change and I don't have that time. So I'm done and thats all there is to it. So you probably wont be seeing nor hearing from me. Well anyhow I'm about to go tanning and get my shit together.

Im out