*out on my own...with stacey*
well, me and stacey finally moved out...so if you dont see many posts from me, thats why. the apartment is great. we finally got an antenna to watch the basics. at least i dont miss my soaps :)
we had a small get together last week. that was fun. chase, stephen (staceys boyfriend), and sam (our gay friend) came over and drank a little. chase and stephen spent the night.
saturday, we had a housewarming party and drank. had some people over. we also got a new puppy. his name is Jaxon and he's a pomeroodle. cute as a button.
halloween, i stayed at home dressed up as minnie mouse and drank until i fell asleep (10:30 pm).
i'm starting to get really depressed and not want to do anything. things arent really going the way i would like them to. moving out was supposed to help me with being happy, but its not. at all. i'm tired of coming home and having to cuddle with my dog...he doesnt like it either. i go to bed at night wondering why im alone...and cry. i've liked a boy for over a year now (yes im sorry to all my ex's that i've had a crush, it doesnt mean i didnt like you). things are always on and off and im tired of it. lately things were good. he made plans with me, he wanted to actually hang out with him. i guess it was because i didnt really have those feelings out in the open and i didnt try to keep in contact with him. so we hung out. now that i've been around him a bit, i dont want him to leave...and he is leaving. he doesnt make plans with me anymore. he doesnt want to hang out with me anymore. i'm more of a scratching post to him. its really upsetting. i'm never going to win this battle either. i dont like him...he likes me...i like him...he ignores me. WHAT THE FREAKING HELL? i just dont understand. i'm giving up on him. after a year of wondering, wishing, and too much hope, i'm giving up. i'll delete his number out of my phone so i wont have the urge to call him. i'll delete his s/n off my buddy list so i wont IM him. i dont want to bother him anymore. thats what i feel like, a nusance. sorry for caring, sorry for wanting to be around you. not anymore, im done. bye.
-jenni-
512-363-0998
thats my cell. the only way to get ahold of me now.
we had a small get together last week. that was fun. chase, stephen (staceys boyfriend), and sam (our gay friend) came over and drank a little. chase and stephen spent the night.
saturday, we had a housewarming party and drank. had some people over. we also got a new puppy. his name is Jaxon and he's a pomeroodle. cute as a button.
halloween, i stayed at home dressed up as minnie mouse and drank until i fell asleep (10:30 pm).
i'm starting to get really depressed and not want to do anything. things arent really going the way i would like them to. moving out was supposed to help me with being happy, but its not. at all. i'm tired of coming home and having to cuddle with my dog...he doesnt like it either. i go to bed at night wondering why im alone...and cry. i've liked a boy for over a year now (yes im sorry to all my ex's that i've had a crush, it doesnt mean i didnt like you). things are always on and off and im tired of it. lately things were good. he made plans with me, he wanted to actually hang out with him. i guess it was because i didnt really have those feelings out in the open and i didnt try to keep in contact with him. so we hung out. now that i've been around him a bit, i dont want him to leave...and he is leaving. he doesnt make plans with me anymore. he doesnt want to hang out with me anymore. i'm more of a scratching post to him. its really upsetting. i'm never going to win this battle either. i dont like him...he likes me...i like him...he ignores me. WHAT THE FREAKING HELL? i just dont understand. i'm giving up on him. after a year of wondering, wishing, and too much hope, i'm giving up. i'll delete his number out of my phone so i wont have the urge to call him. i'll delete his s/n off my buddy list so i wont IM him. i dont want to bother him anymore. thats what i feel like, a nusance. sorry for caring, sorry for wanting to be around you. not anymore, im done. bye.
-jenni-
512-363-0998
thats my cell. the only way to get ahold of me now.