emorific/ finals suck
not in the mood to be emo right now. but it explains how ive been all weekenddd.
yay for emo friends like kami to bring the emo out in me. man i love kami.
ok so kami and i always happen to feel the EXACT same. so what a relief to have someone to talk to when i absolutely feel like living in a cave for the rest of my life. last night we had a loong talk about how weve both been feeling..ive kind of been scared lately because ive started feeling how i used to feel like...last school year. and it sucked. but kami. wow you help me so much. AND on top of everything else, im glad we can hate boys together. and make conclusions? hahah yes its plural. TRIP TO THE LIBRARY WE WILL TAKE! hahaha. man i have good ideas. KAMI YOU ARE AWESOME. and your coming home tomorrow. can i get a "yessss".
so let me backtrack a bit. last weekend i recorded my cd. which was interesting...but soo fun. it was kinda sad that i only got to do one take of each song, and i only got to do 3 songs..so i dont think i exactly sound awesome on them but whatever. its good for only playing them once. so i got the cd back on thursday and ive already listened to it like 23581 times. yes i know, real exciting.but it was cool when the guy told me he wants to record me some more..im thinking ill try it in Feb...so i guessi need to get to writing some more..
today meanwhile i went to maggies. love her. and it took me 15 minutes to get out of her driveway because of a truck full of mexican construction workers wouldnt move. sorry i dont speak spanish.. hahah
HEY EVERYONE blbrian is soo cool.
tonight i went to starbucks. yes by myself. i was going to just drive around and think but then i ended up going to the badgers house. which im so glad i did because josh is amazing. and it got my mind off everything thats been going on. and i love that whenever me and josh hang out we just sit around and do nothing. we just talk and listen to music and look up information on mono and i LOVE IT. JOSH YOU MAKE ME HAPPY. ahh badgers=<33.
so about whats been going on. not much to say. confused, yes. upset, sort of. stressed, maybe. apathetic, absolutely. happy....i dont really know. its kind of..not awesome.
but last night i finally prayed about wahts going on. and God is the best part of my life. if only i could remember more in times like these that i can rely on him, i know things will get better. thats something everyone needs to remember.
and FINALLY. another highlight of my day was talking to BROOKE. omgimissher. wait, understatement. but i think shes secretly hiding her frustration towards me for losing our matching underwear...i looove you BIGGIE. hahah.
ok. wow lots of writing.
bye.
he drums in his dreams,
an exquisite extreme, i know
hes as damned as he seems
and more heaven then a heart could hold
but do i try to change him
so hard not to blame him
it just aint right
oh and i dont know, i dont know what hes after
but hes so beautiful, such a beautiful disaster
and if i could hold on through the tears and the laughter
would it be beautiful, or just a beautiful disaster?
yay for emo friends like kami to bring the emo out in me. man i love kami.
ok so kami and i always happen to feel the EXACT same. so what a relief to have someone to talk to when i absolutely feel like living in a cave for the rest of my life. last night we had a loong talk about how weve both been feeling..ive kind of been scared lately because ive started feeling how i used to feel like...last school year. and it sucked. but kami. wow you help me so much. AND on top of everything else, im glad we can hate boys together. and make conclusions? hahah yes its plural. TRIP TO THE LIBRARY WE WILL TAKE! hahaha. man i have good ideas. KAMI YOU ARE AWESOME. and your coming home tomorrow. can i get a "yessss".
so let me backtrack a bit. last weekend i recorded my cd. which was interesting...but soo fun. it was kinda sad that i only got to do one take of each song, and i only got to do 3 songs..so i dont think i exactly sound awesome on them but whatever. its good for only playing them once. so i got the cd back on thursday and ive already listened to it like 23581 times. yes i know, real exciting.but it was cool when the guy told me he wants to record me some more..im thinking ill try it in Feb...so i guessi need to get to writing some more..
today meanwhile i went to maggies. love her. and it took me 15 minutes to get out of her driveway because of a truck full of mexican construction workers wouldnt move. sorry i dont speak spanish.. hahah
HEY EVERYONE blbrian is soo cool.
tonight i went to starbucks. yes by myself. i was going to just drive around and think but then i ended up going to the badgers house. which im so glad i did because josh is amazing. and it got my mind off everything thats been going on. and i love that whenever me and josh hang out we just sit around and do nothing. we just talk and listen to music and look up information on mono and i LOVE IT. JOSH YOU MAKE ME HAPPY. ahh badgers=<33.
so about whats been going on. not much to say. confused, yes. upset, sort of. stressed, maybe. apathetic, absolutely. happy....i dont really know. its kind of..not awesome.
but last night i finally prayed about wahts going on. and God is the best part of my life. if only i could remember more in times like these that i can rely on him, i know things will get better. thats something everyone needs to remember.
and FINALLY. another highlight of my day was talking to BROOKE. omgimissher. wait, understatement. but i think shes secretly hiding her frustration towards me for losing our matching underwear...i looove you BIGGIE. hahah.
ok. wow lots of writing.
bye.
he drums in his dreams,
an exquisite extreme, i know
hes as damned as he seems
and more heaven then a heart could hold
but do i try to change him
so hard not to blame him
it just aint right
oh and i dont know, i dont know what hes after
but hes so beautiful, such a beautiful disaster
and if i could hold on through the tears and the laughter
would it be beautiful, or just a beautiful disaster?