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Lord, here I am, Your servant. I have not listened to Your Word in far too long. I have lived the life of a sinner for far too long. I am not worthy of Your Love. I am not worthy of Your Grace. I ask you to guide me to better serve You and lead and be an example to my shipmates in living a life of Worship.
Well earlier today I had a long religous discussion with a friend of mine on the boat and realized I need to do some readjusting. I've been wandering down the wrong path for awhile hiding under the cloak of 'being a sailor'. That's only a cover and an easy excuse. I haven't attended church on my own for a very long time. I use the excuse that I hate going by myself but that shouldn't matter, I'm never alone when I'm there. I've always got Him with me. I will definetly be in church this coming Sunday Morning. Several months ago I had a sort of spiritual awakening and it was wonderful, but being underway and stressed out and lonely have overshadowed that over the last several months and I've once again realized that I've put my Love for the Lord on the back shelf. I say and do things everyday that are awful. Not only with my language and actions, but I constantly break the commandments. How many times have I been absolutely horrible to someone. what ever happenesd to Love Thy Neighbor? I say this now and will say that I'll keep it up but I know I wont, I'm gonna slip back into my old habits, probably will cuss again within the hour. I need help to be a better person. I can't wait till I have my partner in Love and Faith, Amber. I know that together we'll be great. We'll have each other to keep the other one motivated and keep each other straight. It will be hard to leave the Catholic Church when Amber and I get married but there is nothing I'd rather have than to be able to attend church with my wife and pray together all the time. It will take a lot of getting used to, attending a different church and all, but it's worth it. It's not like I'm leaving Jesus, He's everywhere, no matter what church we attend.
Well earlier today I had a long religous discussion with a friend of mine on the boat and realized I need to do some readjusting. I've been wandering down the wrong path for awhile hiding under the cloak of 'being a sailor'. That's only a cover and an easy excuse. I haven't attended church on my own for a very long time. I use the excuse that I hate going by myself but that shouldn't matter, I'm never alone when I'm there. I've always got Him with me. I will definetly be in church this coming Sunday Morning. Several months ago I had a sort of spiritual awakening and it was wonderful, but being underway and stressed out and lonely have overshadowed that over the last several months and I've once again realized that I've put my Love for the Lord on the back shelf. I say and do things everyday that are awful. Not only with my language and actions, but I constantly break the commandments. How many times have I been absolutely horrible to someone. what ever happenesd to Love Thy Neighbor? I say this now and will say that I'll keep it up but I know I wont, I'm gonna slip back into my old habits, probably will cuss again within the hour. I need help to be a better person. I can't wait till I have my partner in Love and Faith, Amber. I know that together we'll be great. We'll have each other to keep the other one motivated and keep each other straight. It will be hard to leave the Catholic Church when Amber and I get married but there is nothing I'd rather have than to be able to attend church with my wife and pray together all the time. It will take a lot of getting used to, attending a different church and all, but it's worth it. It's not like I'm leaving Jesus, He's everywhere, no matter what church we attend.