Damn
Man, I've had one of those freakin days. to start it off I read Amber's Journal and she seems really upset about something, I dont know what, but I got the impression it's about me and I'm scared shitless. Why do I have to be so far away? I knew a long distance relationship would be hard, but today I've been basically freakin out all day, I couldn't concentrate, I'm scared....because I was nervous I smashed my finger really fucking bad, I was moving some really heavy stuff and smashed my finger between it and got my finger in between it and the wall, and Doc told me I probably killed the nail and that it'll fall off soon, right now it's a ugly black/purple. but it will grow back soon! hopefully. then I was cleaning underneath the foward escape trunk and turned and hit my forehead on a valve with a sharp edge and freakin got a huge lump on my head now, which also caused me to have a headache for the rest of the day. And on top of that it's been POURING all day, I've been soaked all day, been very cold. I shivered most of teh afternoon. Finally I'm dry and warm, but still feel sick, have this headache, and my finger hurts like hell.
For Amber...I Love You with ALL my heart. ask anyone, ANY of my friends, they will all tell you that your the only one I wanna be with. I still dont know if you are upset with me or not, but it sure seems so and it's tearing me up inside. the thought of losing you brings me nearly to tears. I can't imagine not having you in my life, I know that we've only been together for 5 months, but you have been the girl I've wanted for years and I'll do anything to keep you as mine. I Love You Amber, and I Always will!
For Amber...I Love You with ALL my heart. ask anyone, ANY of my friends, they will all tell you that your the only one I wanna be with. I still dont know if you are upset with me or not, but it sure seems so and it's tearing me up inside. the thought of losing you brings me nearly to tears. I can't imagine not having you in my life, I know that we've only been together for 5 months, but you have been the girl I've wanted for years and I'll do anything to keep you as mine. I Love You Amber, and I Always will!