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yup another night and im obivously not sleepy so im updating this thing. well 2day i was not that productive. my parents woke me up at fucking 7am 2 go somewhere w/them. i was like this is bullshit. i was so sleepy i dont even remember where we went, i kno it was somewhere in va. last night or this morning, w/e the hell u want 2 call it, i was up till atleast 4 am. atleast. i was so tired i even took my blanket and slept in the car there. even the shower i took b4 going didnt wake me up. so then i came back home and my brother wouldnt let me go 2 sleep. kept on annoying me and i was like arghhhh so i ended up taking my dog out 4 a walk, it is so bright outside! so then i came back home and talked 2 some ppl online. i swear there r some really disturbing ppl online. seriously some ppl r just so damn nasty its not even funny. then i decided 2 take a long ass nap in my basement, but then i was woken up by my brother who was telling me 2 go sleep somewhere else so he could watch some marathon on tv....argh i was so mad, so he made me go up 2 my room and sleep there. then i woke up around 4. and watched some random soap opera marathon on tv, i dont even remember what marathon it was. then i took another shower and just kinda sat in front of my tv 4 the nxt cpl hours, had dinner, tv. then my parents were like, at 12, go 2 sleep and i was like r u freaking kidding me? then my brother left the house 2 do w/e the hell he does in the nite out w/his friends and im now sitting here in my room w/my laptop typing this entry up. man i miss my desktop. its still in nj. speaking of nj, recently, ive been talking 2 my friends there more often then usual and its weird how good i had it there. when my parents asked me if i wanted 2 move back 2 md or stay in nj, obviously i said md w/o much thought....man i really shud have rethought about all of that. i mean yea i guess u can say im happy here or w/e but, idk its hard 2 explain....i really miss everyone there, a lot. i mean all the great times we had, i took everything 4 granted. u kno u never really realize how great u had it till its gone. nj was really really nice. no denying that. i just wonder how things would b if i decided 2 stay in nj and not come back here. i mean dont get me wrong, im glad im back. i mean i was born in md and have lived in this area my whole life, but last year....idk what 2 say it was differnt. i mean ill admit it was really hard starting high school w/o any of my friends from redland in a whole nother statem and didnt really kno any1 from the tennis team. i seriously would not have survived the 1st week of high school if it wasnt 4 amanda moy. great tennis buddy. but yea moving sucked ass, i hated it. i spent most of my time in nj bitching about how much happier i'd b if i were at magruder right now, rather than bernards. now im thinking the other way around. i mean im not saying that im unhappy at magruder or anything but its like i can never truly b happy. its like i have everything, dont appreciate it, and then when its all gone im like my life sucks. god damnit whats wrong w/me :( anyways i think i just gonna watch lotr or something. make myself feel better....