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I just needed somebody and some sord of special attention. I am nobody i i have excepted that. Nothin about me is excitin anymore and nobody thinks that spending time is specail anymore. I didnt do anything tonight and nobody could. I tried to set something up tomorrow and thats not happening. i guess i wil get no special attenion in days and maybe a tease hear and there. i hate teasing, it has gotten to where it depresses me and makes me feel even more alone because i geet teased and then i get sent home. i dont really get special attention anyways, She doesnt feel like it and only wants to be with me. thats all gravy and everything but i am way to sexual just to get teased and sent home. so it makes me feel unwanted. it makes me feel like that excitment in my life is over now. i dont want it to be gone. she used to want it like everyhnce and now she doesnt really care, she says we have the rest of our lives but that doesnt mean i want to wait till then. it saddens me greatly that my relationship has gotten boring sexually, and because she is the sweet heart she is she would read this and then feal bad about it and it would happen more often and then would make me feel bad too so wha do i do. i know im good in bed but does that get old?