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Insomnia. Again.
I had thought that changing my schedule (or rather, having my schedule changed for me) to working nights would make things easier. I'd get to sleep at the hour I liked and wake up late. Everyone like to sleep in right?
However, apparently my insomnia doesn't stem from the fact that I try to go to bed too early, as I had always believed. I had always assumed that my clock ran just a little bit later than the rest of the world, and if I could only get to the point where my world ran on that clock I'd be fine.
But no. Here I am, 5 am wide awake with no end in sight. I have been lying awake for a good hour or so; I don't even feel tired. And so my mind wanders to many many things I try to keep it away from.
And now I am wide awake. I don't know what to do. Why is sleep, one of the most basic of things the hardest for me.
I had thought that changing my schedule (or rather, having my schedule changed for me) to working nights would make things easier. I'd get to sleep at the hour I liked and wake up late. Everyone like to sleep in right?
However, apparently my insomnia doesn't stem from the fact that I try to go to bed too early, as I had always believed. I had always assumed that my clock ran just a little bit later than the rest of the world, and if I could only get to the point where my world ran on that clock I'd be fine.
But no. Here I am, 5 am wide awake with no end in sight. I have been lying awake for a good hour or so; I don't even feel tired. And so my mind wanders to many many things I try to keep it away from.
And now I am wide awake. I don't know what to do. Why is sleep, one of the most basic of things the hardest for me.