I start school tomorrow morning.
At 7:00am, which means I have to get up at 5:00am. Yes, that's in the morning. Yes, I used to go to bed then. No, I'm not staying up all night instead. I'm going to bed at 9:00pm tonite. That's in two hours. Tomorrow I get out of school at 6:00pm, which means I'll be home around 7:00pm and in bed by 9:00pm again. I'll be doing this for the next 8 weekends, minimum. Then I start driving, hopefully. Means more money, less time ... and I'm 100% unsure what my schedule is going to be. In fact, I know nothing of my not so distant future. Anyone that knows me knows that I'm one of those people that likes to know what's ahead of him, or at least to know what my choices are. Right now I'm flying blind.
I've never done that. It's scary and exciting. I've got something to look forward to, and I'm walking towards it at full stride.
This maybe will fill my need to get away, I hope. Instead of just selling my house and going away, I can do the over the road thing for a while. Some solitude, some new places, some extra money for when I get back. Pay off some bills, and then start working on getting my own truck to do what this was supposed to be all about in the beginning.
If Dad won't let me start this now, I'll do it the hard way and he'll have to let me work because if he doesn't I'll be his competition. Besides, he'll be proud of me. And that's more important to me than any kind of money or job.
Very nervous about the physical tomorrow. Not too much about getting it done as much as finding out I'm sick or something. I very seriously doubt I am, but who knows? I haven't seen a doctor in 4 years. A lot happens in 4 years.
Ugh ... ok, going home. Wish me luck!
I've never done that. It's scary and exciting. I've got something to look forward to, and I'm walking towards it at full stride.
This maybe will fill my need to get away, I hope. Instead of just selling my house and going away, I can do the over the road thing for a while. Some solitude, some new places, some extra money for when I get back. Pay off some bills, and then start working on getting my own truck to do what this was supposed to be all about in the beginning.
If Dad won't let me start this now, I'll do it the hard way and he'll have to let me work because if he doesn't I'll be his competition. Besides, he'll be proud of me. And that's more important to me than any kind of money or job.
Very nervous about the physical tomorrow. Not too much about getting it done as much as finding out I'm sick or something. I very seriously doubt I am, but who knows? I haven't seen a doctor in 4 years. A lot happens in 4 years.
Ugh ... ok, going home. Wish me luck!