I dont know
Searched a program for DVD recording (to rec my films) all this day. Bought a lot of them and nothing! I cant understand how it could be - rec avi to DVD-R... Fucking computer, fucking programs. Or maybe I am very stupid.
Now I use one program, its working but I dont know what it doing.... And nobody understand... Fuck off...
Thought about Jeremie. I dont know, maybe its autumn depression, I am guilty in it, maybe I get tired... But its difficult to trust in my feelings. Is it the best. Some days ago I knew it better than anything more - I love him... I love him now but I am afraid that hes not my
fate and purpose. This frightens me. Because I have never seen the world and my future without him.
I dreamed today (generally I do not believe in the sleeps and other stupidity). But today I saw - spring, the lecture of the English economy, our foolish teacher speak something boring and... I kiss with Alex! Alex from my University group! It was so reall and so pleasant, fantastic! Staggering, such sensations! I loved him at this moment, in my dreaming.
But this is sleep. But in real life I cannot understand how I relate to Alex. He is charming, fascinating, sociable, friendly, he is simple the miracle. But I see (and Lana speak about it a lot) Alex "two-faced", lick-spittle, the mercenary person...I dont know is it true. I prefer to see the best sites of people character. But now its serious!
I cannot draw a conclusion and something solve.
Now I use one program, its working but I dont know what it doing.... And nobody understand... Fuck off...
Thought about Jeremie. I dont know, maybe its autumn depression, I am guilty in it, maybe I get tired... But its difficult to trust in my feelings. Is it the best. Some days ago I knew it better than anything more - I love him... I love him now but I am afraid that hes not my
fate and purpose. This frightens me. Because I have never seen the world and my future without him.
I dreamed today (generally I do not believe in the sleeps and other stupidity). But today I saw - spring, the lecture of the English economy, our foolish teacher speak something boring and... I kiss with Alex! Alex from my University group! It was so reall and so pleasant, fantastic! Staggering, such sensations! I loved him at this moment, in my dreaming.
But this is sleep. But in real life I cannot understand how I relate to Alex. He is charming, fascinating, sociable, friendly, he is simple the miracle. But I see (and Lana speak about it a lot) Alex "two-faced", lick-spittle, the mercenary person...I dont know is it true. I prefer to see the best sites of people character. But now its serious!
I cannot draw a conclusion and something solve.