::CONTEST ENTRY:: Saying Goodbye...
Title- Saying Goodbye
Author- Ssam_Ssam
Pairings- Yoosu
Rated PG-13 :D
Genre- Drama(cliche) Romance :D
Summary- When our Yoosu decides to take a ride... (Ooh I stink at summaries D:)
Song- White Lies...
WARNING! CHARACTER DEATH(s)!
NOTE- Entry for the contest on Yoosu_Yongwonhi
I was listening to this song in the car and it was just stuck in my head :D.... Oh and the plot was from this forward I got on my phone i hate those it was really touching though :D Maybe someone's heard of it already? I hope no one mind :D
**First contest entry EVER soooo sorry if I did anything wrong :D
I woke up again. In the middle of the night. My brother rushed into my room asking if I was all right.
He left when I told him I was fine when in reality I wasn't.
My hand hovered over my chest before actually pressing the soft cotton shirt against my too warm breast.
My heart hurt. It felt like it was clenching, burning it's way to my skin. My eyes clenched at the pain, my head hurting from the horrid and detailed memories.
"Chun..."
FLASHBACK:
"Faster!" I screamed into his ear. Hugging my arms around his chest, I smiled.
He went faster and I screamed with joy.
"Faster!"
He continued at neck breaking speed. Slowly, fear was catching up with me.
"Chun! Slow down! Just a little slower!" I spoke nervously into his ear.
We rode on his motorbike on the highway dodging traffic and running red lights.
He didn't say anything, but I can tell that he's smiling or at least I thought so.
"Chunnie! Can we go slower please? Can you even hear me?" I shouted into his helmet covered ear.
"Nah! Let's just go!"
I heard clicking, and turned my head to look over his shoulder. His fingers were frantically pressing the brakes.
If he was pressing them then why weren't they slowing down?
I trusted Chunnie... With my life.
END FLASHBACK:
Junho hyung woke me up from my sleepless night and told me that breakfast was ready. I climbed down from my bunk bed and stared at the empty, untouched bunny blankets and sighed.
The clock read nine forty-five, the time when he would call everyday.
My Mickey Mouse phone rang and I sped over to pick up receiver, only to be disappointed.
"Hey Hyukjae." My friend that still accepted me after my breakdown at school.
"Well well! It doesn't seem I'm wanted here. Maybe I'll call Donghae, he'll want someone to talk to... Considering he has no one to talk to in the first place." Hyukjae said, mumbling the last part under his breath.
A laugh bubbled up in my throat, but not full heartedly.
"Sorry.... Just woke up... A little light headed you know the deal. What are you doing up so early? It's Sunday..."
"Just thought you needed a friendly voice to listen to.... 'Coz today is the day-"
"I know.... Thanks Hyukjae."
"No problem... Just don't hurt yourself." I nodded into the phone even though the other couldn't see it. I hung up the phone and traced my finger around the big, yellow Mickey Mouse shoes.
A birthday present from.... Him.
"Junsu-yah! Breakfast!"
"Coming!" I kissed Mickey's shiny black nose and headed downstairs.
I took a seat and glanced over at my brother and father, who were both looking at me worriedly.
"Appa... Hyung... I'm fine." I stressed.
Umma came out of our kitchen juggling three bowls of rice and *banchan.
"Who's ready for breakfast?" SHe smiled at me and skillfully passed me a bowl without dropping a single grain of rice.
"Junsu-yah, don't forget tonight we'll be going over to the Park's house to pay respects. So no fooling around today okay sweetie?"
A nod let her know that I heard.
Chewing, images of him flying, being crushed flew into my line of sight.
FLASHBACK:
"Su! Put on my helmet!"
"What? No! You need it more than I do!" I clenched fist, which held onto his dark green hoodie.
"The cops are up ahead and I don't want you to get in trouble!" He shouted back at me. I nodded into his back and slowly reached for the helmet on his wonderful, heaven-sent head with my left hand. I pulled it off quickly so it wouldn't block his sight.
Carefully, I slipped it onto my head.
"Okay! I got it on! When are we going back? I think my parents are going to realize that I snuck out waaaay past my curfew!" I yelled, my voice vibrating my vocal cords.
His deep baritone voice made all my nervousness go away, "We'll be there soon. Just a detour. Don't worry."
Clicking noises came up again and again I ignored it, but I didn't ignore the fact that Yoochun huffed angrily. I looked up and shrieked with fear for Chunnie and for my self.
A huge eighteen wheeler came straight at us and Chunnie quickly covered my body and switched our positions so I was on bottom. We flew into the air after being slammed into the hard chrome grill of the truck.
The bike crashing and exploding into bits and pieces of metal scratched against my legs and against his face. We hit the cement and he smiled at me.
"Are you all-"
"WATCH OUT CHUNNIE!!"
Then the remains of the motorbike crushed itself against us. Piercing through Yoochun's body and making him bleed uncontrollably.
His tears and blood dripped onto my face, mixing with my own tears.
His body slid off of mine and I pulled the thick piece of metal from his back. He coughed and moaned.
"Chunnie!" I pulled off the helmet with much difficultly. The inside of the helmet clung to my hair. My hair was matted with dark red blood.
I touched my head and reached slowly towards Yoochun. My hand hovered over his chest and clenched my fist.
"Chunnie! Yoochun- Ah! Get up! Get UP!" My fists tried to push the blood back into his body.
"Please! Please!! Don't die on me!"
END FLASHBACK:
I didn't realize that everyone was already outside waiting for me. Standing up I quickly put away my half full bowl into the sink and ran outside to my parents and brother.
"Are you okay? What took you so long?" My father asked me.
'Huh? Oh! I'm fine..."
We spent the whole day at the Park's house. While everybody was sitting in the living room talking to each other I spent my day in Chun's old room.
Lying there made me think.... What would've happened if we stayed in our respective houses, instead of out there going against our parents' curfews.
Maybe we would still be together. Forget what other people told me, 'He's with you spiritually'? Bullshit....
No one has any idea what it feels like to on the side where you lost something that you live for. What we die for.... I lost my oxygen, I lost my love, I lost my life, my soul, my everything.
I sat up on his soft bed and looked at the window. I opened it up and jumped out, landing on my feet with ease. I ran back to my home, with tears filling up my eyes. Making the world blurry.
FLASHBACK:
"Chunnie! Wake up!" I placed my head on his chest ignoring his blood finding its way into my ear and onto my cheek.
His heartbeat was slowing down. I lifted his chin and pressed my lips against his pale ones. Air rushed into his lungs, but blood still bled.
"Why?! Why is it you?" I pounded my hands against his chest feeling anger, pain.
"Why did you give me your helmet? You could've lived!" My sobs were unheard. He still looked pale with crystalline tears mingling with his ruby colored blood. "Why me?"
He smiled through half lidded eyes and raised a blood splattered hand. I leaned into his cold touch.
"It's... Because of you... I... Love you... The brakes were broken. I don't want you... hurt." A temper tantrum erupted out of my throat.
"I don't want you to die! I want you here! With me!" The smile faded from his lips and I quickly took his lips. Smothering him. He responded with a little push, but fell weak.
"Chun..."
"Su... I love you. My silly... Duck." I smiled with the skin on my lips cracking with blood and saliva.
"I love you too... My funny bunny." He smiled once more at me and closed his eyes to greet the Angel of Death.
"Chunnie?..." I shook him, "Chunnie?!" My voice became more frantic as more tears were falling and I was soon bawling.
"CHUNNIE!!"
END FLASHBACK
I reached my house, opened the door, and raced to my bathroom. Realizing I was forgetting something I ran into my brother's room and pulled out his jumping rope.
I climbed up onto the countertop and tied one end to the fan/light, and looped a hole with the other end. I wrapped it around my neck and thought of Chunnie's smiling face.
I can't live without him... He is my air, my soul... He's my other half, my soulmate.
I picked up my razor and stared at it.
He loved my hands...
I slashed the back of my hands, making several cuts at once, until they were dripping with blood. I hissed at the pain.
He loved my legs. Blood still dripping from the razor I cut through my pants and felt the sharp metal touch my leg. Red liquid seeped through and tainted my pants.
Several cuts on my thighs made me wobble.
My heart... He stole my heart and gave me his. Holding the razor firmly, I dug the razor deep into my chest.
I stepped over the counter and the rope quickly tightened around my neck. Lights flashed before my eyes. Then I saw his face.
He was frowning, I reached towards him, but he did not do the same.
I was struggling... My bloodied hands scratched at my throat.
I wanted to be with him.
Chunnie... If only you were here.
Blinking, Yoochun's smiling face and outstretched hand was waiting for me.
FLASHBACK:
"Chunnie!!"
Why did this happen?
The ambulance came up and preformed tests on Yoochun. They sighed and shook their heads.
"June 4th, " He looked at his watch, "**12:43 A.M."
"No! You're doctors! Save him!" I shook one of the nurses and they tried to pry me off of them.
"Sir! It's... Too late. Do you know this man?" I nodded and caressed his cheek.
"He's my boyfriend... He... Died on his birthday..."
Looking into his calm face tears flooded my face again. I stood up and started to kick his dead body.
"YOU PROMISED ME WE WOULD GRADUATE AND GET MARRIED TOGETHER! YOU TOLD ME TO NEVER GIVE UP ON LIFE! I HATE YOU!!!"
I slid down and hugged his body close to mine, feeling the blood seeping into my light blue jacket.
"No... I love you... Please come back to me..."
That night the nurses and firefighters watched me mourn for the one that died for me...
END FLASHBACK:
My body was turned towards the mirror and my eyesight was getting blurry. I could make out my body in the mirror and saw my now purple face.
My eyes closed and I saw myself wearing my light blue jacket and black skinnies again. I looked up and saw Yoochun who was wearing the same green hoodie and ripped jeans. He had beautiful white wings on his back and he opened his arms.
Running, I jumped into his warm embrace.
"Chunnie... I missed you so much..."
"I missed you too Su. Why did you kill yourself?" My head was still buried into his chest, smelling the warm cinnamon scent.
"I'd do anything, if I can only breathe next to you..."
Yoochun smiled and kissed the crown of my head.
Finally, I was happy once again.
_____________________________________________________________________________
Hyukjae was bored and he flipped through the channels.
He stopped at the news when he heard a poor kid doing suicide.
"Must be a slow news day..."
"A young, high school student, Kim Junsu has committed suicide." Hyukjae coughed on the water he was sipping and sat close to the TV.
"I told him not to do anything! I told him to be careful!"
"It seems to be a hanging and he has cut his serious arteries and veins in the process. Hitting his arteries in his legs and slicing through the veins in his hands... Also they have found multiple cuts on his chest."
Hyukjae ran a hand through his hair and felt his nose start to run as tears fell down.
"He died approximately June 4th, **12:43 P.M. Only at the age of seventeen."
"All on his birthday..."
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Well.... :( It didn't come out the way I had planned... Poo.... But I hope you enjoyed it a little?
Firrst contest entry eva! And I'm still newbie soooooo... :D
Forgive me If I made any mistakes whatsoever in this :DDDD Tell me if I did anything wrong!
Please comment! :3 Thank youuuuu!
-throws Minnie Muffins-
**Banchan- Side dishes that go with the meals (Kimchi, dried anchovies, soup, etc.)
**AWWW... the same time thingy... only twelve hour difference though :D
Author- Ssam_Ssam
Pairings- Yoosu
Rated PG-13 :D
Genre- Drama(cliche) Romance :D
Summary- When our Yoosu decides to take a ride... (Ooh I stink at summaries D:)
Song- White Lies...
WARNING! CHARACTER DEATH(s)!
NOTE- Entry for the contest on Yoosu_Yongwonhi
I was listening to this song in the car and it was just stuck in my head :D.... Oh and the plot was from this forward I got on my phone i hate those it was really touching though :D Maybe someone's heard of it already? I hope no one mind :D
**First contest entry EVER soooo sorry if I did anything wrong :D
I woke up again. In the middle of the night. My brother rushed into my room asking if I was all right.
He left when I told him I was fine when in reality I wasn't.
My hand hovered over my chest before actually pressing the soft cotton shirt against my too warm breast.
My heart hurt. It felt like it was clenching, burning it's way to my skin. My eyes clenched at the pain, my head hurting from the horrid and detailed memories.
"Chun..."
FLASHBACK:
"Faster!" I screamed into his ear. Hugging my arms around his chest, I smiled.
He went faster and I screamed with joy.
"Faster!"
He continued at neck breaking speed. Slowly, fear was catching up with me.
"Chun! Slow down! Just a little slower!" I spoke nervously into his ear.
We rode on his motorbike on the highway dodging traffic and running red lights.
He didn't say anything, but I can tell that he's smiling or at least I thought so.
"Chunnie! Can we go slower please? Can you even hear me?" I shouted into his helmet covered ear.
"Nah! Let's just go!"
I heard clicking, and turned my head to look over his shoulder. His fingers were frantically pressing the brakes.
If he was pressing them then why weren't they slowing down?
I trusted Chunnie... With my life.
END FLASHBACK:
Junho hyung woke me up from my sleepless night and told me that breakfast was ready. I climbed down from my bunk bed and stared at the empty, untouched bunny blankets and sighed.
The clock read nine forty-five, the time when he would call everyday.
My Mickey Mouse phone rang and I sped over to pick up receiver, only to be disappointed.
"Hey Hyukjae." My friend that still accepted me after my breakdown at school.
"Well well! It doesn't seem I'm wanted here. Maybe I'll call Donghae, he'll want someone to talk to... Considering he has no one to talk to in the first place." Hyukjae said, mumbling the last part under his breath.
A laugh bubbled up in my throat, but not full heartedly.
"Sorry.... Just woke up... A little light headed you know the deal. What are you doing up so early? It's Sunday..."
"Just thought you needed a friendly voice to listen to.... 'Coz today is the day-"
"I know.... Thanks Hyukjae."
"No problem... Just don't hurt yourself." I nodded into the phone even though the other couldn't see it. I hung up the phone and traced my finger around the big, yellow Mickey Mouse shoes.
A birthday present from.... Him.
"Junsu-yah! Breakfast!"
"Coming!" I kissed Mickey's shiny black nose and headed downstairs.
I took a seat and glanced over at my brother and father, who were both looking at me worriedly.
"Appa... Hyung... I'm fine." I stressed.
Umma came out of our kitchen juggling three bowls of rice and *banchan.
"Who's ready for breakfast?" SHe smiled at me and skillfully passed me a bowl without dropping a single grain of rice.
"Junsu-yah, don't forget tonight we'll be going over to the Park's house to pay respects. So no fooling around today okay sweetie?"
A nod let her know that I heard.
Chewing, images of him flying, being crushed flew into my line of sight.
FLASHBACK:
"Su! Put on my helmet!"
"What? No! You need it more than I do!" I clenched fist, which held onto his dark green hoodie.
"The cops are up ahead and I don't want you to get in trouble!" He shouted back at me. I nodded into his back and slowly reached for the helmet on his wonderful, heaven-sent head with my left hand. I pulled it off quickly so it wouldn't block his sight.
Carefully, I slipped it onto my head.
"Okay! I got it on! When are we going back? I think my parents are going to realize that I snuck out waaaay past my curfew!" I yelled, my voice vibrating my vocal cords.
His deep baritone voice made all my nervousness go away, "We'll be there soon. Just a detour. Don't worry."
Clicking noises came up again and again I ignored it, but I didn't ignore the fact that Yoochun huffed angrily. I looked up and shrieked with fear for Chunnie and for my self.
A huge eighteen wheeler came straight at us and Chunnie quickly covered my body and switched our positions so I was on bottom. We flew into the air after being slammed into the hard chrome grill of the truck.
The bike crashing and exploding into bits and pieces of metal scratched against my legs and against his face. We hit the cement and he smiled at me.
"Are you all-"
"WATCH OUT CHUNNIE!!"
Then the remains of the motorbike crushed itself against us. Piercing through Yoochun's body and making him bleed uncontrollably.
His tears and blood dripped onto my face, mixing with my own tears.
His body slid off of mine and I pulled the thick piece of metal from his back. He coughed and moaned.
"Chunnie!" I pulled off the helmet with much difficultly. The inside of the helmet clung to my hair. My hair was matted with dark red blood.
I touched my head and reached slowly towards Yoochun. My hand hovered over his chest and clenched my fist.
"Chunnie! Yoochun- Ah! Get up! Get UP!" My fists tried to push the blood back into his body.
"Please! Please!! Don't die on me!"
END FLASHBACK:
I didn't realize that everyone was already outside waiting for me. Standing up I quickly put away my half full bowl into the sink and ran outside to my parents and brother.
"Are you okay? What took you so long?" My father asked me.
'Huh? Oh! I'm fine..."
We spent the whole day at the Park's house. While everybody was sitting in the living room talking to each other I spent my day in Chun's old room.
Lying there made me think.... What would've happened if we stayed in our respective houses, instead of out there going against our parents' curfews.
Maybe we would still be together. Forget what other people told me, 'He's with you spiritually'? Bullshit....
No one has any idea what it feels like to on the side where you lost something that you live for. What we die for.... I lost my oxygen, I lost my love, I lost my life, my soul, my everything.
I sat up on his soft bed and looked at the window. I opened it up and jumped out, landing on my feet with ease. I ran back to my home, with tears filling up my eyes. Making the world blurry.
FLASHBACK:
"Chunnie! Wake up!" I placed my head on his chest ignoring his blood finding its way into my ear and onto my cheek.
His heartbeat was slowing down. I lifted his chin and pressed my lips against his pale ones. Air rushed into his lungs, but blood still bled.
"Why?! Why is it you?" I pounded my hands against his chest feeling anger, pain.
"Why did you give me your helmet? You could've lived!" My sobs were unheard. He still looked pale with crystalline tears mingling with his ruby colored blood. "Why me?"
He smiled through half lidded eyes and raised a blood splattered hand. I leaned into his cold touch.
"It's... Because of you... I... Love you... The brakes were broken. I don't want you... hurt." A temper tantrum erupted out of my throat.
"I don't want you to die! I want you here! With me!" The smile faded from his lips and I quickly took his lips. Smothering him. He responded with a little push, but fell weak.
"Chun..."
"Su... I love you. My silly... Duck." I smiled with the skin on my lips cracking with blood and saliva.
"I love you too... My funny bunny." He smiled once more at me and closed his eyes to greet the Angel of Death.
"Chunnie?..." I shook him, "Chunnie?!" My voice became more frantic as more tears were falling and I was soon bawling.
"CHUNNIE!!"
END FLASHBACK
I reached my house, opened the door, and raced to my bathroom. Realizing I was forgetting something I ran into my brother's room and pulled out his jumping rope.
I climbed up onto the countertop and tied one end to the fan/light, and looped a hole with the other end. I wrapped it around my neck and thought of Chunnie's smiling face.
I can't live without him... He is my air, my soul... He's my other half, my soulmate.
I picked up my razor and stared at it.
He loved my hands...
I slashed the back of my hands, making several cuts at once, until they were dripping with blood. I hissed at the pain.
He loved my legs. Blood still dripping from the razor I cut through my pants and felt the sharp metal touch my leg. Red liquid seeped through and tainted my pants.
Several cuts on my thighs made me wobble.
My heart... He stole my heart and gave me his. Holding the razor firmly, I dug the razor deep into my chest.
I stepped over the counter and the rope quickly tightened around my neck. Lights flashed before my eyes. Then I saw his face.
He was frowning, I reached towards him, but he did not do the same.
I was struggling... My bloodied hands scratched at my throat.
I wanted to be with him.
Chunnie... If only you were here.
Blinking, Yoochun's smiling face and outstretched hand was waiting for me.
FLASHBACK:
"Chunnie!!"
Why did this happen?
The ambulance came up and preformed tests on Yoochun. They sighed and shook their heads.
"June 4th, " He looked at his watch, "**12:43 A.M."
"No! You're doctors! Save him!" I shook one of the nurses and they tried to pry me off of them.
"Sir! It's... Too late. Do you know this man?" I nodded and caressed his cheek.
"He's my boyfriend... He... Died on his birthday..."
Looking into his calm face tears flooded my face again. I stood up and started to kick his dead body.
"YOU PROMISED ME WE WOULD GRADUATE AND GET MARRIED TOGETHER! YOU TOLD ME TO NEVER GIVE UP ON LIFE! I HATE YOU!!!"
I slid down and hugged his body close to mine, feeling the blood seeping into my light blue jacket.
"No... I love you... Please come back to me..."
That night the nurses and firefighters watched me mourn for the one that died for me...
END FLASHBACK:
My body was turned towards the mirror and my eyesight was getting blurry. I could make out my body in the mirror and saw my now purple face.
My eyes closed and I saw myself wearing my light blue jacket and black skinnies again. I looked up and saw Yoochun who was wearing the same green hoodie and ripped jeans. He had beautiful white wings on his back and he opened his arms.
Running, I jumped into his warm embrace.
"Chunnie... I missed you so much..."
"I missed you too Su. Why did you kill yourself?" My head was still buried into his chest, smelling the warm cinnamon scent.
"I'd do anything, if I can only breathe next to you..."
Yoochun smiled and kissed the crown of my head.
Finally, I was happy once again.
_____________________________________________________________________________
Hyukjae was bored and he flipped through the channels.
He stopped at the news when he heard a poor kid doing suicide.
"Must be a slow news day..."
"A young, high school student, Kim Junsu has committed suicide." Hyukjae coughed on the water he was sipping and sat close to the TV.
"I told him not to do anything! I told him to be careful!"
"It seems to be a hanging and he has cut his serious arteries and veins in the process. Hitting his arteries in his legs and slicing through the veins in his hands... Also they have found multiple cuts on his chest."
Hyukjae ran a hand through his hair and felt his nose start to run as tears fell down.
"He died approximately June 4th, **12:43 P.M. Only at the age of seventeen."
"All on his birthday..."
_______________________________________________________________________________________________
Well.... :( It didn't come out the way I had planned... Poo.... But I hope you enjoyed it a little?
Firrst contest entry eva! And I'm still newbie soooooo... :D
Forgive me If I made any mistakes whatsoever in this :DDDD Tell me if I did anything wrong!
Please comment! :3 Thank youuuuu!
-throws Minnie Muffins-
**Banchan- Side dishes that go with the meals (Kimchi, dried anchovies, soup, etc.)
**AWWW... the same time thingy... only twelve hour difference though :D