she is the sea upon which i flow..

[ssaeglopur]

i saw her the other night. we didn't speak. i immediately started crying when i saw her, had to turn away, regain composure. before she left she walked by me, placed her hand on my back. an old comforting feeling that left me choking down tears. she is everything to me and she is so far away. i don't know where to go from here. i've grown since i've been away from her. because i had to be my own strength for once. because nobody loved me after that and nobody will like she does. and everyone has told me and everyone keeps telling me that i cannot allow one person to be my entire support.

she wrote to me on her xanga.

i need her.

we were so intimate. like we were already lovers.