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[ssaeglopur]

when you were younger you thought about certain situations in life that you never thought would be your life. that would never happen to me. that could never be me. and then the day comes when you're caught in the middle of it happening and darling, it is you. you feel like you're spinning, you cannot focus your eyes on one single thing but what is happening to you. selfish little you. there is a hole in you and everyone sees it and slowly you're melting away with it. and then the day comes and you see the blood you thought you'd never see and you are feeling like you've never felt. the day comes when you no longer fear. once the fear is gone there is nothing stopping you. and not even that scares you. you've finally found yourself with nothing left to give and you find yourself not wanting to give. it's over. you're done. life and death are one in the same, where is your 'out'.

constantly pressing on your chest, he's there.
watching you slowly sufficate, he's there.

i am no longer.