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rain rain go away.
i have got to find something.. some sort of activity that makes me happy, takes my mind off things, leaves me with some sort of personal accomplishment when im through;;;; i need this activity to sort of calm me through the next couple months.
what used to be; i used to paint and thats all i would do and now everything these hands create is worthless and completely different to what i had in mind. i really wish i could have that back. afternoons when id come home from school, throw the most inspiring tunes on and go at it til my mother came home.
the problem could be that i never find myself in an inspiring place.
the was a time when my world was alive and i was beaming every day. now everything seems bored and black and white and i want the fucking color back.
i donno where the problem lies and frankly, i dont care. i just want to be happy again and have friends that listen again and friends that fucking hug eachother and i want to forget the boy across the world.
i want to move to olympia and regain my clarity and sit seaside every day reading and writing and sailing and feeling like a whole person again. i want to meet someone out there and i want to feel completely comfortable with moving on from my past. i want to love someone new. i want to wake up next to them and look at them and know that i am exactly where i want to be.
i want out of minnesota and into my new life.
i have got to find something.. some sort of activity that makes me happy, takes my mind off things, leaves me with some sort of personal accomplishment when im through;;;; i need this activity to sort of calm me through the next couple months.
what used to be; i used to paint and thats all i would do and now everything these hands create is worthless and completely different to what i had in mind. i really wish i could have that back. afternoons when id come home from school, throw the most inspiring tunes on and go at it til my mother came home.
the problem could be that i never find myself in an inspiring place.
the was a time when my world was alive and i was beaming every day. now everything seems bored and black and white and i want the fucking color back.
i donno where the problem lies and frankly, i dont care. i just want to be happy again and have friends that listen again and friends that fucking hug eachother and i want to forget the boy across the world.
i want to move to olympia and regain my clarity and sit seaside every day reading and writing and sailing and feeling like a whole person again. i want to meet someone out there and i want to feel completely comfortable with moving on from my past. i want to love someone new. i want to wake up next to them and look at them and know that i am exactly where i want to be.
i want out of minnesota and into my new life.