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there isn't a guarantee that you'll call me tomorrow
or that i'll be honest with you and spit out the words i wish you to hear
i want you to hear them because i want them to change your mind
but they won't
i'm so scared, darling.
that's what i want you to know.
i want to curl up inside your chest like i did when we were young
when we were sleepy/hot/sticky in love
when we would lay in bed all day laughing and making plans
when you kissed every inch of me and told me that i was it
that i was the one you were going to marry
that you would spend the rest of your life with me and you would be so proud of me no matter how bad things got
that you would always be there
that you would always have faith in me
but it's gone now, so soon
i would never give up on you and you know that, don't you
why couldn't you do the same for me
why couldn't you come running back arms open; heart riping out of your chest
why was that too much to ask when we've both made the same mistakes
i want you here, you belong with me
i want you laying next to me, bound to me
i want to watch you sleep
i want to taste every part of you that reaches inside me
i want you to rest your head between my neck and shoulders
i want you to wrap yourself around me
pulling our stomachs in and out
i love you so much
and you're telling me to open up
like you never opened up
to tell you all you've missed out on in my life
saying you were hoping i'd come there so we can talk about this, so we can move on from it, so we can re-establish something. what something. i need you. i need every part of you. i need you to need that much of me, darling. if you're going to take me, take me. not the way you used to, i need you to be demanding. i am yours. you own me.
or that i'll be honest with you and spit out the words i wish you to hear
i want you to hear them because i want them to change your mind
but they won't
i'm so scared, darling.
that's what i want you to know.
i want to curl up inside your chest like i did when we were young
when we were sleepy/hot/sticky in love
when we would lay in bed all day laughing and making plans
when you kissed every inch of me and told me that i was it
that i was the one you were going to marry
that you would spend the rest of your life with me and you would be so proud of me no matter how bad things got
that you would always be there
that you would always have faith in me
but it's gone now, so soon
i would never give up on you and you know that, don't you
why couldn't you do the same for me
why couldn't you come running back arms open; heart riping out of your chest
why was that too much to ask when we've both made the same mistakes
i want you here, you belong with me
i want you laying next to me, bound to me
i want to watch you sleep
i want to taste every part of you that reaches inside me
i want you to rest your head between my neck and shoulders
i want you to wrap yourself around me
pulling our stomachs in and out
i love you so much
and you're telling me to open up
like you never opened up
to tell you all you've missed out on in my life
saying you were hoping i'd come there so we can talk about this, so we can move on from it, so we can re-establish something. what something. i need you. i need every part of you. i need you to need that much of me, darling. if you're going to take me, take me. not the way you used to, i need you to be demanding. i am yours. you own me.