Opening the previously locked doors in my heart.
Love is like pi - natural, irrational, and very important. -Lisa Hoffman
I don't know about you, but that is one of the best illustrations of word use I have seen in a while. There is so much locked and hidden in my heart, I don't even understand why so much is. The reasons and the why fores escape me now. All the work I did to get over Mindy, I was trying so hard to not close off my heart, not to alleviate pain by causing indifference. But that is exactly what I have found, found it impossible to really feel anything but pain. Have I been feeling so ALONE because I have myself locked away the conduits of Love? Locked away the parts of my heart that allow me to feel close to anyone? Locked away the vulnerabilities that make us human, that allow others to know us? I don't know anymore. The past two weeks have been as much a search for understanding, as they have been a search for Life. Maybe my friends don't really know everything I have been going through, don't really understand I did actually listen to them, can't see it. But that's my fault. To all of you who have given council to me, I greatly appreciate it you have helped more than you know, prolly more than I know. I thank God for the friends he has laid in my path, and I hope they never leave. God Bless you all.
I don't know about you, but that is one of the best illustrations of word use I have seen in a while. There is so much locked and hidden in my heart, I don't even understand why so much is. The reasons and the why fores escape me now. All the work I did to get over Mindy, I was trying so hard to not close off my heart, not to alleviate pain by causing indifference. But that is exactly what I have found, found it impossible to really feel anything but pain. Have I been feeling so ALONE because I have myself locked away the conduits of Love? Locked away the parts of my heart that allow me to feel close to anyone? Locked away the vulnerabilities that make us human, that allow others to know us? I don't know anymore. The past two weeks have been as much a search for understanding, as they have been a search for Life. Maybe my friends don't really know everything I have been going through, don't really understand I did actually listen to them, can't see it. But that's my fault. To all of you who have given council to me, I greatly appreciate it you have helped more than you know, prolly more than I know. I thank God for the friends he has laid in my path, and I hope they never leave. God Bless you all.