(For one second Hixar sees a gentle but heartfelt smile on Momo's face as she thinks about the chance that the dream she had could come real. But it soon drops as reality seems to come back to her.)
If it could happen, I would be indescribably happy. Happier than I'll probably ever be in my life...But it will never happen. It is too good to ever be real. A dream. That's all it will ever be.
I don't think you should give up on it so easily, whatever that dream may be. If you put effort into it, surely something, if just a small part of it, might come to be.
[[Of course, Hixar still had no clue what that dream was but, at least these lines were practiced when it came to getting information. This time, it was only to get information on that dream.]]
But there's nothing I can do to help, if I don't know what that dream is, Momo.
...I dreamed that I was normal again. I had my real body back and Seiren was gone. People weren't afraid of me anymore because of something inside of me or something out of my control. I was welcomed back to my family with open arms. And my sister...she forgave me.
(Momo starts to cry a little and shakes slightly.)
But none of that could ever happen. I'll never be normal again. I can never get my real body back. Seiren will always be a part of me. No matter what I do, people will fear me. My family never wants to see me again. And my sister...she would never forgive me for what I did to her.
[[Hmm... now would be a terrible time for gift-giving. Hixar at least knows how to read a mood.]]
Well, you are only slightly wrong on one part. I've not once been fearful of you. [[Hixar comes in closer and moves to put his arms around her, as much as he'll be allowed.]]
[[He was already thinking of many other things to say too; explaining how Allelujah has a similar condition, which, he pilots well with (according to his study), that she could ask for forgiveness, making comments about her new family being here on the ship... but, even that might be too far, or too soon. So for now, he listens, and lets her cry her eyes out should she choose.]]
(Momo makes no move to stop Hixar. Her crying starts to increase as she speaks.)
But the rest is all true. It would take a miracle for me to return to normal and be free of her. And my family hates me...as they rightfully should after what I did to my sister.
Why? I have had nightmares every night for eleven years! I thought I could handle any dream. But this...this one good dream was more painful than all of the nightmares. It showed me a world I hoped for...only to take it all from me in an instant!
Well... have you tried to make that dream come true. One step at a time?
Well, no, you've already made one step. There is at least one that's not afraid of you. And even if you might think it fruitless... we can try to get you in touch with your family, and your sister.
Perhaps it's only a theory I read, but, I'd read that dreams are sometimes insight to the future. Or insight to other worlds, but that changes from reading to reading. [[But at least he's still there, holding onto her. Getting attached was never the plan on that day back in Kamogawa.]]
(Momo looks at Hixar with a few tears in her eyes.)
I-I guess that is true...It's just hard to see so many people tip toeing around me because of her. It really hurt when I found out that some of my friends felt wary of me. It is nice to know that there are people who don't feel that way though.
My family...Laura and I have been looking into finding them. But I'm afraid. I know that even if they saw me again the wouldn't recognize me since my appearance has changed so vastly. They'd probably think it was some sick joke.
Momo... Do you remember the computer I said went missing. [[Or perhaps that's not how he told it... there's that too...]]
Perhaps I didn't mention the computer itself, I can't recall. However, that computer is a massive database of information. If I could access it again, it would be all too easy to look for your parents once more. Until then, I'll see what pieces Hayana can dig up.
Even if we have to take tiny steps towards that dream, we'll take them.
It's... moved. Stolen, I should say. We haven't figured out how someone stole a super-computer about the size of the ships bridge but... it's been done.
(A look of confusion and worry crosses Momo's face.)
They stole a computer that big? How is that even possible? Well, it doesn't matter how they did it I guess, but what matters is what they want it for. Who knows how much information has been extracted from it by now...Is there any way to find it Hixar?
My people... my... immediate boss is searching around for clues. [[Hixar looks a little... concerned about the question though. Part of it anyway. He knows that it's "a thing" to earn people's trust. And it's definitely "a thing" for him to earn her trust, but, there's only so much he can say without betraying his own objectives.]]
Let's say this much; there's hundreds of mechanical secrets stored there. After that, you fall into the 'in the right hands' cliche.
[[This is... curious how this turned into something somewhat about him when it was about her. But at least it's about him helping her!]]
If what might be real?
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If it could happen, I would be indescribably happy. Happier than I'll probably ever be in my life...But it will never happen. It is too good to ever be real. A dream. That's all it will ever be.
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[[Of course, Hixar still had no clue what that dream was but, at least these lines were practiced when it came to getting information. This time, it was only to get information on that dream.]]
But there's nothing I can do to help, if I don't know what that dream is, Momo.
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(Momo starts to cry a little and shakes slightly.)
But none of that could ever happen. I'll never be normal again. I can never get my real body back. Seiren will always be a part of me. No matter what I do, people will fear me. My family never wants to see me again. And my sister...she would never forgive me for what I did to her.
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Well, you are only slightly wrong on one part. I've not once been fearful of you. [[Hixar comes in closer and moves to put his arms around her, as much as he'll be allowed.]]
[[He was already thinking of many other things to say too; explaining how Allelujah has a similar condition, which, he pilots well with (according to his study), that she could ask for forgiveness, making comments about her new family being here on the ship... but, even that might be too far, or too soon. So for now, he listens, and lets her cry her eyes out should she choose.]]
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But the rest is all true. It would take a miracle for me to return to normal and be free of her. And my family hates me...as they rightfully should after what I did to my sister.
Why? I have had nightmares every night for eleven years! I thought I could handle any dream. But this...this one good dream was more painful than all of the nightmares. It showed me a world I hoped for...only to take it all from me in an instant!
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Well, no, you've already made one step. There is at least one that's not afraid of you. And even if you might think it fruitless... we can try to get you in touch with your family, and your sister.
Perhaps it's only a theory I read, but, I'd read that dreams are sometimes insight to the future. Or insight to other worlds, but that changes from reading to reading. [[But at least he's still there, holding onto her. Getting attached was never the plan on that day back in Kamogawa.]]
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I-I guess that is true...It's just hard to see so many people tip toeing around me because of her. It really hurt when I found out that some of my friends felt wary of me. It is nice to know that there are people who don't feel that way though.
My family...Laura and I have been looking into finding them. But I'm afraid. I know that even if they saw me again the wouldn't recognize me since my appearance has changed so vastly. They'd probably think it was some sick joke.
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Perhaps I didn't mention the computer itself, I can't recall. However, that computer is a massive database of information. If I could access it again, it would be all too easy to look for your parents once more. Until then, I'll see what pieces Hayana can dig up.
Even if we have to take tiny steps towards that dream, we'll take them.
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(Momo thinks about it for a second.)
I guess it is worth a try. But first we need to find out why you no longer can access it. Have you been able to find any clues as to why you can't?
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It's... moved. Stolen, I should say. We haven't figured out how someone stole a super-computer about the size of the ships bridge but... it's been done.
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They stole a computer that big? How is that even possible? Well, it doesn't matter how they did it I guess, but what matters is what they want it for. Who knows how much information has been extracted from it by now...Is there any way to find it Hixar?
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Let's say this much; there's hundreds of mechanical secrets stored there. After that, you fall into the 'in the right hands' cliche.
[[This is... curious how this turned into something somewhat about him when it was about her. But at least it's about him helping her!]]
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