The Third Show/Hiding in shame

[queenmikimiki]

[Despite the fact that the situation with Imber ended relatively happily one Miki was nowhere to be found for several days after it. Nebula was still on the ship however

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[curseu_reflexes]

[Pat pat. Julia's holding nothing against you, Miki.]

If you were all talk you wouldn't have gone out there in the first place.

[queenmikimiki]

I wasn't able to do anything though...I choked and in the end all I did was get Nebula hurt again.

[curseu_reflexes]

If you're weak... then I probably am too. If it came down to that moment of truth... honestly there would've been a good chance of me choking too.

And you helped us against Heims and Nubilium. And it wasn't like you just stood, unable to so much as raise a hand against Imber. Miki, I know it's said a lot about people in general, but we really can be our harshest critics.

[queenmikimiki]

I know, I know that but...if it wasn't for Haruka I could have.

[A large gulp. She looks like she's on the verge of tears here.]

I just keep thinking about would have happened if Haruka hadn't stopped Imber. All because of my inability to stick to my word.

[queenmikimiki]

No, it means that I'm weak. If everything didn't somehow work out there I don't think that I would still be here. I could have cost even people their lives because of that weakness.

[She is beating herself up a bit here although she does take the time to shoot you a glare Kamille.]

Getting advice from you of all people is proof of that.

[Yeah she doesn't seem to have forgiven you yet Kamille.]

[queenmikimiki]

[Well guess what, that just struck a nerve.]

And just because things turned out perfectly doesn't mean that I didn't make a mistake there. If you hadn't noticed those mass-produced iDols were nothing to Nebula and I. Hiems, he was destroyed with a single blow. When I was sticking to my convictions things went fine.

If you couldn't get it through your thick skull, I'm not saying my way would have been better.

I'm saying that I made a mistake!

[Yeah she is beyond pissed off now.]

A mistake that led to Nebula getting beat down by a berserk Imber. Julia, Laura, even Luger, the people supporting me couldn't do anything about that. Did they "finish the job" there!? If they could have handled it why did Nebula get so damaged again because of me!? If Haruka hadn't shown up there I would be dead right now because of the choice I made. Probably even others along with me, and you're trying to tell me that I NEED this as a reminder? That I could have killed myself and Nebula because of my own selfish feelings?

[aheartstrength]

[ Hoshi's picked up on Miki's odd behavior whenever she comes into the kitchen and wanted to talk to the poor girl. So, when she tells one of the workers to cover her shift in the kitchen for now, she finally decides to approach Miki with a little smile. ]

Pardon me, but I couldn't help but notice you've been sad lately. Is something bothering you?

[queenmikimiki]

Ah...you're the other Hoshi.

[Miki was able to recognize her at the very least.]

You don't have to worry about me, I'm just a bit shaken up from my last outing.

[Being intentionally vague here.]

[aheartstrength]

It's my first name - I guess that means that's your...last name?

[ Oh, she notices that behavior quite well and manages to pick up on the vagueness. ]

Mm, don't worry. During one of my outings, I was shaken up pretty bad, so I've got some experience if you'd like advice on how to handle it.

[queenmikimiki]

Yeah, Fuso isn't really creative with their names are they.

[At least she can joke around a bit.]

I'm guessing that you think that hiding in an empty hallway is not the right way to handle it.

[saikyocivrobo]

Still feeling down? I'd have thought that the mission's results would rather be a reason to celebrate.

[queenmikimiki]

W-werter!

[She's a bit surprised that you found her here. Miki even takes a bit to fix her hair.]

Sorry, I'm just a bit angry at...myself really. I don't feel like I deserve to celebrate anything.

[saikyocivrobo]

Because of personal failure?

[queenmikimiki]

...Yeah.

I'm really selfish aren't I.

[mad_copycat]

Tatsu don't understand. What does 'all talk' mean? Does it mean you talk too much? If so, Tatsu don't think that is a bad thing. It just means you have a lot to say.

[queenmikimiki]

All talk means just that, you're all talk no action. Essentially what I did during...all of that. I talked big about destroying Imber and in the end I wasn't able to do it.

[mad_copycat]

Tatsu don't understand. Everything worked out and Haruka is back and happy with Imber and you did more to stop Imber than Tatsu did. You even stopped Imber from crushing us all. Isn't that good?