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Every year when winter rolls around my mood drastically spirals downward. So, I guess this is where it starts.
I'm not sure how I feel about anything right now. I feel claustrophobic. I think I need my freedom back.
As hard as I've been trying to distract myself, I still can't seem to shake this. This will be th 4th wake I've been to in the past 2 years. All guys under 18. I should be an expert at coping with this stuff by now, but it seems to hurt worse every time.
So much for "staying POSI".
And please don't comment with an "I'm Sorry" or "I love you". If anyone needs to hear that right now it's those boys families. I'll eventually move on and think about other less important things. They won't.
If this is what the rest of winter is going to be like, I think I'll go into hibernation.