tenth ghost faced

[srsbusinessk]

[ Voice | Failed Deity Filter ]

[Once again, he's very very clearly drunk. And has been ever since Dean died, so there's no question as to what this post is about. Sorry Dawn, sorry Hanna, but he just can't fucking take it anymore.]

It's been three days and he's still not back

Comments

[cant_just_hang]

Sam...alcohol impairs your decision making skills. You know this. Perhaps it'd be wiser to make a deal with the deities while sober. You should probably plot it out and consider all the avenues a deal could take. I've never made a deal but from what I understand, it's not something you need to go into lightly. Or drunk.

[srsbusinessk]

It takes the edge off. Makes this all just seem like a bad dream. It means I'm still human, somewhere.

[cant_just_hang]

I'm not telling you not to get drunk. I'm not that self righteous nor do I assume that I wouldn't do something like it in your situation. I'm just saying perhaps you shouldn't try to make decisions that could affect you so drastically in this condition.

[srsbusinessk]

In my right state of mind, I'd be threatening them instead of begging them. Desperate times, desperate measures. I don't want to waste any more time "thinking this one through". I need my brother back.

[cant_just_hang]

Is there anything I can do to help?

[srsbusinessk]

Not really, no. [A beat, while he dwells on his current state of mind and laughs humorlessly and drunkenly.] God, this is pathetic.

[cant_just_hang]

It's not pathetic. It's a common way of coping with the loss of someone you're close to. Pathetic would be continuing to deal with it this way after some time has passed. [She's generally honest because she's not aware that she should have more tact]

[srsbusinessk]

Oh, okay. So then I'm getting close to pathetic. That's...comforting.

[Drunken ranting, he's sorry, Rebecca! ;;]

[cant_just_hang]

You'll find another way to deal, Sam. You're stronger than that. The world is made up of victims and survivors. You're a survivor so yeah you're dealing with this using alcohol now. Eventually you'll realize that that doesn't help you survive and you'll move onto something that does because a survivor can pretend to be a victim for a little while but in the end, they'll risk everything and do anything to survive.

[srsbusinessk]

[Listening quietly because it's actually...damn good advice. He finds himself nodding along, albeit a little drunkenly, but still.]

So are you speaking from experience or just really good at motivational speaking?

[cant_just_hang]

[There's a long pause. It's not something Rebecca talks about much. Finally she answers]

I'm a horrible motivational speaker.

[srsbusinessk]

[He takes that as confirmation enough.]

Well, you sold me. [Beat] Thanks, Rebecca. It really does help.

[cant_just_hang]

You're welcome. I'm glad I was able to help a little.