pain is a up and a down
sometimes i think my life is not worth it with all the disapointments i have, yet other time i think my life is full with all the excitements in my life.
yet there is still the hole inside me which has yet to be filled,
i do not know how or when it will be full again but until then there is stll the pain.
pain that i do not know how to get rid of except in the wrong ways,
but until i find a way to rid myself of this pain in a more useful ways,
my way will have to work till then.
the whole that still need to be full i think of everyday cause i wish for more of it to fill in every way i can to good in my life.
there are things that need to be said to people who are here for me now,
but i can not put it into word to do so but i must find a way somehow.
i now know that there is a way to get my disapointments from keep comming back,
but for some odd reason i can not do these things that i have for so long been trying to unrack from my load.
i wish i could tell the people in my life the real reason that i do the things i do or say,
but i even do not know these reasons why i act this way,
but until that day comes i will keep my secrets and feelings at bay.
i pray every night for the sins i have made and the people i have hurt,
but for some reason i feel god does not listen to a siner at heart.
i am greatful for the people i have in my life who support me strongly,
and for the people i have hurt who do not hold it wrongly against me for all the things i have done.
i hope one day that god will forgive me for all the things i have done,
and that the people i love we still be there when that is said and done.
yet there is still the hole inside me which has yet to be filled,
i do not know how or when it will be full again but until then there is stll the pain.
pain that i do not know how to get rid of except in the wrong ways,
but until i find a way to rid myself of this pain in a more useful ways,
my way will have to work till then.
the whole that still need to be full i think of everyday cause i wish for more of it to fill in every way i can to good in my life.
there are things that need to be said to people who are here for me now,
but i can not put it into word to do so but i must find a way somehow.
i now know that there is a way to get my disapointments from keep comming back,
but for some odd reason i can not do these things that i have for so long been trying to unrack from my load.
i wish i could tell the people in my life the real reason that i do the things i do or say,
but i even do not know these reasons why i act this way,
but until that day comes i will keep my secrets and feelings at bay.
i pray every night for the sins i have made and the people i have hurt,
but for some reason i feel god does not listen to a siner at heart.
i am greatful for the people i have in my life who support me strongly,
and for the people i have hurt who do not hold it wrongly against me for all the things i have done.
i hope one day that god will forgive me for all the things i have done,
and that the people i love we still be there when that is said and done.