And that's why Kids...
YOU NEVER EXPERIENCE LOVE.
IT'S A BEAUTIFUL-BITTER EXPERIENCE.
IT'S A SLOW DEATH THAT EATS AT YOUR HEART OVER TIME.
LIES, BETRAYAL, BROKEN PROMISES, FALSE HOPES.
EVERY "LOVE STORY" ENDS IN HEART BREAK.
THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS LOVE.
YOU LOVE AND LIVE FOR THE MOMENT,
NOT FOREVER,
BECAUSE NOTHING LAST FOREVER.
Treading in places I shouldn't have dare gone..
Seeing the words and "happiness" about that..
Should've never treaded that far..
I should have remained clueless..
But fuckin curiosity got the best of me..
And like it killed the cat, satisfaction brought it back.
I see now that it wasnt real, twas a figment of my imagination.
For if it were real at all, it wouldn't haven't happened... if it had to have happened it wouldn't have happened so fast.
But time is priceless and it CAN'T be gotten back.
Once time has passed, IT'S GONE.
My time is all I have and I dare not see what time I have left waste away on that any more.
No faith left in it, for its beyond out of my control.
Both of them taking a piece of my heart as I walk away with what remains of my heart locked away tighter than I've ever had before.
I dare not see what time I have left be wasted on the matters of my heart. I am far to strong enough to ignore the signs and red flags. I will no longer listen to my heart, for its full of sweet bitter lies of false fairy tale love that doesn't exist.
On ward in life I will go,
Venturing off in ways that I don't need worry about my heart.
I won't listen to it and its lies no more. No longer am I going to let it weaken me and bring me down when there are so many reasons to value my time and happiness while I am still able too.
Always will I remember it all,
But there is no point in wasting time on something that I see was never mine as much as it appeared and said it was.... lies, all lies.
*throws key blindly*
Lost now forever in the deepest and darkest part of me is the key to my jaded, broken, worthless heart.
If anyone were to try to find it, I'd say to them this:
Whoever shall find this key next...
Be warned...
That it is one of the many keys to Me. There are walls as high as the moon to climb over or bring down, There are parts of me I dare never see again.. please don't bring them out.
I am human being and I deserve to be happy. With or without you I will move on ward no matter what the outcome; My time is ticking away and I plan to make the most of every minute that I can.
Join me or step aside and let this gentle beast live in peace. Don't say anything unless its the god honest fuckin truth. I speak no lies, I shall hear no lies.
Lord, Baby Jesus,
watch over me and help guide me through life. I don't dare want to wake my beast again, help me avoid that.
hmmm..I'm attempting to talk to God.. hmmm.. *shrugs* if there is a 'man in the sky who hears and sees all'
good day for now, I bid myself ado, lol!
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