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trying to figure out why mandy brings up my 'relationship' with chris every time we're hanging out with matt.
she can't honestly be jealous, trying to remind matt that i'm 'with' someone else
can she?
lil' recap.
matt = best friend since we were kids. i met him when iw as 11, he was 14. this august will be TEN YEARS. damn. he dated my ex-best friend on and off for ages. we almost dated three years ago, but didn't. i love him more than just about anyone. he's my best friend and i just want him to be happy <3
mandy = a best friend in high school. my squad leader in marching band, two years older than me.
mandy & matt started dating about two years ago, got engaged over the holidays.
it was... weird.
and she was always jealous of our friendship when she and him first started dating
(though she thought it was a great relationship & had no issues BEFORE they dated, of course)
they're having problems, mostly that she is being clingy and doesn't trust him
and it's hurting him.
i have never seen him cry, in almost ten years of knowing him (and through many, many failed relationships/engagements)
until tonight.
it broke my heart.
i hate seeing him in so much pain.
and i can't help but resent her for causing it unnecessarily.
and it pisses me off that she tries to act all fine about me being at his place hanging out
but then every time she comes over, she mentions whoever i'm 'dating' or crushing on,
like she's trying to make a point.
and then she acts all weird about it with him later on.
it's annoying, and not fair to either of us.
matt is my best friend. i'm going to choose him if i'm forced to take sides.
and i'm not going to give up that friendship just because it makes her uncomfortable
that's already happened. we all got into a huge fight when they first started dating.
he & i didn't talk for almost eight months.
it wasn't until this summer that we got together,
talked,
i broke down crying,
and we finally made up & promised not to hurt each other again.
sigh.
this is all a mess.
and i hate it <3
i just want things to work for him
for him to find the right girl
to settle down & be happy.
yes, he's made some really stupid mistakes
and a lot of them
in his life,
but he has a big heart
and he is a good person
and i love him.
i want him to be happy.
<3
she can't honestly be jealous, trying to remind matt that i'm 'with' someone else
can she?
lil' recap.
matt = best friend since we were kids. i met him when iw as 11, he was 14. this august will be TEN YEARS. damn. he dated my ex-best friend on and off for ages. we almost dated three years ago, but didn't. i love him more than just about anyone. he's my best friend and i just want him to be happy <3
mandy = a best friend in high school. my squad leader in marching band, two years older than me.
mandy & matt started dating about two years ago, got engaged over the holidays.
it was... weird.
and she was always jealous of our friendship when she and him first started dating
(though she thought it was a great relationship & had no issues BEFORE they dated, of course)
they're having problems, mostly that she is being clingy and doesn't trust him
and it's hurting him.
i have never seen him cry, in almost ten years of knowing him (and through many, many failed relationships/engagements)
until tonight.
it broke my heart.
i hate seeing him in so much pain.
and i can't help but resent her for causing it unnecessarily.
and it pisses me off that she tries to act all fine about me being at his place hanging out
but then every time she comes over, she mentions whoever i'm 'dating' or crushing on,
like she's trying to make a point.
and then she acts all weird about it with him later on.
it's annoying, and not fair to either of us.
matt is my best friend. i'm going to choose him if i'm forced to take sides.
and i'm not going to give up that friendship just because it makes her uncomfortable
that's already happened. we all got into a huge fight when they first started dating.
he & i didn't talk for almost eight months.
it wasn't until this summer that we got together,
talked,
i broke down crying,
and we finally made up & promised not to hurt each other again.
sigh.
this is all a mess.
and i hate it <3
i just want things to work for him
for him to find the right girl
to settle down & be happy.
yes, he's made some really stupid mistakes
and a lot of them
in his life,
but he has a big heart
and he is a good person
and i love him.
i want him to be happy.
<3