Vague Update
Originally published at shanefitzsimmons.com. You can comment here or there.
I haven’t really updated in a while, which I’m sure my millions of adoring fans are sobbing over, but there hasn’t really been much to update. I’ve been working on my script an awful lot (about half way through the second draft currently), and enjoying what freedoms unemployment has given me for the time being. Amber just started going back to school somewhat full-time this week, and until today I haven’t really been making full use of that extra time.
Mind you, I’ve basically been writing, so it’s not like I’m not getting anything done, but I’ve been spending a lot of time just surfing the net and watching movies off of Netflix online (cool feature, by the way). It’s left me feeling a little sedated, and like I haven’t been getting any sun or fresh air (I haven’t been, really). Two weeks ago I had been going to the gym most every day, and I’d started getting into the habit of going out to playing volleyball, but it’s been a while since I’ve done either. I still feel pretty good physically, and I’ve been maintaining my weight, but I’m noticing a lot of changes for the worse compared to how I felt when I was working out and playing hard outside everyday. I need to get back out there. Hopefully Amber and I will both go play volleyball Friday, we’ll see.
Anyway, I’ve sort of developed a semi-newfound interest in something that’s really invigorated my spirit, and the way I look at my place in life right now. I’m not too interested in talking about it in-depth just yet, mostly because I know it’d make me sound like a crazy person if I talked about it before I’ve actually accomplished anything with it. Suffice it to say, it’s something that’s going to involve a lot of research and training and learning, and could potentially change my life dramatically, or it might just not pan out at all and nothing might come of it (as would seem likely based on my history). Even so, this is something that’s really rejuvenated me in a way I haven’t felt in four years, and for the first time in just about as long I really feel like I’m onto something that not only has a decent chance of panning out, but will make me wake up in the morning looking forward to my workday.
That said, it’s not a get rich quick scheme and it’s going to require me to put a lot of work and effort into it ahead of time, but I really feel, not only like I want to put my all into it, but like it’s something I’m really capable of putting my all into without feeling restricted or risking getting bored of it. Just today, in terms of research, I’ve read one book and over 200 pages on this (and I’m a slow reader). I plan on getting up early tomorrow and devoting my whole day to finishing another book I got about 50 pages into today (got about 250 pages left of it). There’s a lot of books on this, and I plan on reading all of them that I can stand. It’s one of the only things that not only do I not mind learning about, but I don’t get bored reading about and really feel like I’m soaking up all the knowledge. This is a great feeling.
But, I’ve been wrong before. I may not have felt as good about this with other stuff recently, but I have felt pretty good about some things in the past, and wound up doing nothing (or very little) with them. I don’t think it’ll happen here, but, like I said, I’ve been wrong before. And it’s a bit more eccentric than my usual ideas, and I’m quite certain I’d look like a fucking idiot if I just started talking about it, so for now I’m going to keep it private. If it winds up working for me then I won’t feel worried about talking about it.
As far as when I’ll be able to feel comfortable talking about it goes… I don’t know. Probably not for a couple of months, minimum. Definitely not before July. Probably not before August. But we’ll see.