Okay I am so angry
I'm tired of being angry all the time. And I'm totally stressing Jo with all my unnecessary angst. I am sick of everything so I will put one final burst of enthusiasm into the bloody production and then I will just shut down. Raj turns me off so much I'm afraid I'll start to hate dancing. I can bloody well dance on my own until I am confident enough for criticism to encourage instead of crush me. After HoS I'll finish all the homework, pour my heart into QT and my coursework. And at the end of the year I will be so clear-minded and empty and at peace that nothing will get to me again.
I need to pare it down to the essentials. Detoxification of the body heart mind and soul.
I don't ever need to talk to ____ anyway because GOD IS HERE and HE REIGNS. One day I'll truly feel that, and that will be the day when I can really surrender like I'm meant to, and I won't need anything but the Saviour.
Meanwhile I'll wait while everything melts away. Most of the time, the things we obsess about aren't as important as we think they are. Eternal perspectives, remember.
I need to pare it down to the essentials. Detoxification of the body heart mind and soul.
I don't ever need to talk to ____ anyway because GOD IS HERE and HE REIGNS. One day I'll truly feel that, and that will be the day when I can really surrender like I'm meant to, and I won't need anything but the Saviour.
Meanwhile I'll wait while everything melts away. Most of the time, the things we obsess about aren't as important as we think they are. Eternal perspectives, remember.