Saying is easier than doing
I feel so helpless when I KNOW what I need to do (or not do) and I KNOW what is good for me...but I act in the opposite manner. Or do exactly what I shouldn't be doing. It's so frustrating. I think that the early 20's-ish age for me is possibly as confusing as middle school was. I spent so much time from ages 12 to about 16 trying to figure out so much shit. And by 17 or 18 I thought I was well on my way to normality. And I FELT normal and sane for a couple years but as soon as 20 hit, I found that I was just as clueless as ever. It seems like the more I learn...the more confused I get. It's like quantuum physics - you want to understand, and you do to an extent, but you need to find out more in order to fully understand. But when you find out more, you complete one piece of the puzzle but find yourself with another incomplete, and possibly more intriguing, piece in the other hand. And on and on and on. But it IS comforting to know that other people my age are going through the same thing. Or people older than me have been through it. And are still alive!
I'll figure it all out someday. ?
I'll figure it all out someday. ?