Once in a Blue Moon.
This is unbelievable; I'm having a terrible week, and I can't believe that I'm saying that- I think I say that about once every two years.
I'm the kind of person who has a lot of trouble seeing the bad sides of things (or, if I do see that, I'm going to make a comic funny about it!). There's no doubt that my life is INCREDIBLE. I get blessed left and right with opportunities that make my head spin. My attitude keeps me in a good mood every day. When there's a problem, I immediately say "okay, how can I learn from this" or, "oops! I have to fix that," and then I do, and then everything is okay again.
This week, I hit a snag that was utterly out of my control, and I am stumped- therefore, stressed out of my mind because of my lack of control. I have literally exhausted every resource that I have- backed into a corner, I am having unbelievably hard time seeing the good in things: logically, I see the few good things, but they are, genuinely, outweighed by the bad.
I never have this happen. I'm utterly unused to feeling disappointment like this on such an overwhelming scale. I think it's downright that I don't know HOW to be sad: I never, ever am! This stress will be temporary, and I know this- by Monday, my horrible projects will have been done, and then I'll get to go to Ohio for a speech tournament and I know that I will be happy because I will enjoy that so much. But, for now, I can't remember the last time that I felt this bad.
I don't want to talk about it too too much, but I'll say shorthandedly that the root of this problem is a horribly negative critique that I got from a very credible person regarding my career in journalism- a person whose judgment I always trusted wholly, and therefore, when this person considered my tv reports inadequate, it honestly meant that they were. It's a bit more complicated than that, and this person was extremely kind about the critiques- also, my negative feelings are exacerbated by a pressing amount of due dates on very high-maintenance projects that I've been told to redo from the start after I already put hours of effort into them.
So. I need your help. Honestly, what do you guys do when you are unbelievably stressed and sad? I kind of feel motivated to go bake a billion things, because that usually makes me happier even when I'm already happy- my best friend wants to go out and binge on waffles with me, and I like that idea. What should I do, you guys? :[ just... say something hilarious, will you? :[ I think I need to be reminded of the world that I live in- the world that, five days ago, was amazing and bright and full of farts and poop and Luigi. :[[[[