Perfume
Of course my depression and the fact that I have a astronomically good life are equally obvious. I'd be an idiot to forget how to appreciate that things go better for me than they do for most people.
- I may be visiting my dad's grave today, but I'm most likely going to bawl when I get there- some people might dance in my situation. Too many people have terrible relationships with the men in their lives, but I had such a good (albeit short) relationship with my father that I literally have a hilariously enormous electra complex. Freud would love to do tests on me.
- Maybe I gained a little bit of weight that's a little bit noticeable, but oh come on, I'm ridiculously- probably suspiciously- healthy. There's nothing wrong with me. I have absolutely zero diseases (mental or physical), I have absolutely zero disorders (mental, albeit recent situational depression and one phobia, or physical), I have the immune system of an ox. I sleep extremely well and am (recently) extremely fit and in fantastic athletic shape. I had a very minor, uninvasive surgery once in 2003 to remove a very minor skin cancer scare- I have never otherwise been admitted to the hospital. I have a very good self-image and consider myself extremely attractive. I desperately love my body without the approval of anyone: I'M the one telling YOU that I look good and am desirable; I don't wait for anyone to tell me that.
- I'm about to get a new car. I'm very excited.
- My grades suck compared to my ordinary report cards.... but, my markings this term were actually A, A, A-, B+ B+ B B-. Maybe my hatred sounds ridiculous. I know that my standards are high, but I set myself to those high standards because I'm completely capable of achieving them. But, that in itself is cool- I'm capable of achieving extremely high standards.
- My secret cosplay is coming along pretty well. I like this character a lot and I think I'm doing decent justice to the outfit. It won't look nearly as legit as my Kaiba cosplay, I think, because I'm doing this one utterly on my own (whereas with the Kaiba cosplay I worked with a seamstress), but I like the character so much that it makes me happy. I look forward to the first photoshoot.
- I guess surgery is always scary, but my family can afford to keep me healthy. My family is very intact and we all love each other and there's absolutely no drama, and I am not concerned about my teeth or the surgery itself because I know that I have everything that I need in order to make an easy recovery.
- I said it myself. I'm a national debate champion and a district champion in one of the most competitive varsity districts on the circuit. I'm also the vice-president of my team, so I'm honored to serve as a role model in that way.
- Maybe I'll miss out on awesome times at Kami-Con in 2011, but I won't (and, in the past, haven't) at Otakon and Youmacon in 2011. I do seem to very often get chances to have a lot of awesome times.