Yech, the past few days
Friday. I talked to Ben and decided that I shouldn't be upset over what happened. Why? I did tell the truth and the truth hurts. It was late at night and I was really sensitive. I told him and he still told me that it hurt. I do think it upset him that I didn't seem to care much the next so he tried to twist the knife to get a reaction but didn't. Why should he?
I hung out with Josh and Wesley. It was fun. When I told Josh that I didn't want affection, he took it as ending the whole dating, friends, finding out who the other one is kind of thing. He doesn't even know what to call it. We're still getting to know eachother. I hugged him thogh and we got that straightened out. Yet, while doing that it made him affectionate again in a pushy way that I'm not comfortable with, like before. That I don't like but am dealing with.
Anyway that day started out bad. I spoke to Ben who threw that in my face and then I got my car back from Collision Care but left my CD face plate there. I called Josh and he took forever in deciding where to go. Instead of having a two minute phone call leaving my enough time to go and get my CD face, by the time I got to new circle road, I had 10 minutes and could just scream. I was having a horrible time. I had to wait a what seemed like for absolute ever for Josh to show up and was just pissed. I said we were going to get a Mocha Latte and then to Chucks adn since he had taken so long on teh phone, he had no more say in where we were going. That struck more of an attitude. He asked what my deal was at the Atlantic Bread Company and I flat out told him "You've been half a day late the whole time this week, once didn't even show up, then you even made me late to pick up my CD face cover which I kept telling you I had to go". Needless to say we had a big fight and he just about pissed me off to high heaven. Then when I fanlly calmed down he brought it up again. I called Wesley adn told him to come. When Wesley showed up we were doing better. Thats when we worked out the whole affectionate thing. I road with Josh to the mall and Wesley followed. We had fun and I got to show off a few Cache dresses which looked simply gorgeous if I do say so myself. I still was a little off with the affection but atleast he got the point by now. After Wesley left we went to DiscJockey, he bought a CD, we ate at McDonalds and then he dropped me off at my car. He called me Honey and I just told him he wasn't that close to me yet which he wasn't, I didn't like it.
Saturday. Me and Wesley were suppose to hang out at Fayette Mall, which we did for like an hour and a half. It took me forever to get there. Things were going great when Wesley made a comment about Josh only wanting to get in my pants. It just struck me really harsh. We parted and I went to Chucks. We hung out for a little while until I went home.
Sunday/Today. Me and Josh hung out. He kept suggesting we go to the park and I really didn't feel like it. I was in this easily annoyed mood and just didn't know how many times I would have to repeat myself. Me and the horse got into a fight which I won but he's still being an asshole. Josh and I took our separate ways to Joseph Beth. Yea I knew he was going to be there first but he just threw it in my face. I don't mind it the first few times but he just kept going and going and going and I am not a morning person (yes it was morning to me). He had a smart ass come back for everything I said and I couldn't stand it. I kept warning him and he just kept on. I could have just shot his head off. He said I walked away from him when I stopped by two chess tables and watched. Of course he came back and was like "I see mate in two moves for black.....yep I see mate........yea thats mate". I was just like "SH" and watched. The girl didn't know much of what she was doing so yes I walked away and went to the section which would have books that I was interested in. He got an attitude. I had cooled down and was fine. He was pissed. He said I treated him like a child. I told him he pissed me off, there were many warnings that I was getting more and more mad and he just kept right on. He said it was a joke and suppose to be funny. I agree it was the first 5 times but he just kept on and on and I kept telling him to stop with more and more tone in my voice. Finally he had gotten the idea. When we got to my work I had to rush in soon. I gave him a hug and let him hold me for a minute. Then was ready to go and he asked for another hug. That wasn't as comfortable but when I got into work I was in much better spirits and had a great time.
I hung out with Josh and Wesley. It was fun. When I told Josh that I didn't want affection, he took it as ending the whole dating, friends, finding out who the other one is kind of thing. He doesn't even know what to call it. We're still getting to know eachother. I hugged him thogh and we got that straightened out. Yet, while doing that it made him affectionate again in a pushy way that I'm not comfortable with, like before. That I don't like but am dealing with.
Anyway that day started out bad. I spoke to Ben who threw that in my face and then I got my car back from Collision Care but left my CD face plate there. I called Josh and he took forever in deciding where to go. Instead of having a two minute phone call leaving my enough time to go and get my CD face, by the time I got to new circle road, I had 10 minutes and could just scream. I was having a horrible time. I had to wait a what seemed like for absolute ever for Josh to show up and was just pissed. I said we were going to get a Mocha Latte and then to Chucks adn since he had taken so long on teh phone, he had no more say in where we were going. That struck more of an attitude. He asked what my deal was at the Atlantic Bread Company and I flat out told him "You've been half a day late the whole time this week, once didn't even show up, then you even made me late to pick up my CD face cover which I kept telling you I had to go". Needless to say we had a big fight and he just about pissed me off to high heaven. Then when I fanlly calmed down he brought it up again. I called Wesley adn told him to come. When Wesley showed up we were doing better. Thats when we worked out the whole affectionate thing. I road with Josh to the mall and Wesley followed. We had fun and I got to show off a few Cache dresses which looked simply gorgeous if I do say so myself. I still was a little off with the affection but atleast he got the point by now. After Wesley left we went to DiscJockey, he bought a CD, we ate at McDonalds and then he dropped me off at my car. He called me Honey and I just told him he wasn't that close to me yet which he wasn't, I didn't like it.
Saturday. Me and Wesley were suppose to hang out at Fayette Mall, which we did for like an hour and a half. It took me forever to get there. Things were going great when Wesley made a comment about Josh only wanting to get in my pants. It just struck me really harsh. We parted and I went to Chucks. We hung out for a little while until I went home.
Sunday/Today. Me and Josh hung out. He kept suggesting we go to the park and I really didn't feel like it. I was in this easily annoyed mood and just didn't know how many times I would have to repeat myself. Me and the horse got into a fight which I won but he's still being an asshole. Josh and I took our separate ways to Joseph Beth. Yea I knew he was going to be there first but he just threw it in my face. I don't mind it the first few times but he just kept going and going and going and I am not a morning person (yes it was morning to me). He had a smart ass come back for everything I said and I couldn't stand it. I kept warning him and he just kept on. I could have just shot his head off. He said I walked away from him when I stopped by two chess tables and watched. Of course he came back and was like "I see mate in two moves for black.....yep I see mate........yea thats mate". I was just like "SH" and watched. The girl didn't know much of what she was doing so yes I walked away and went to the section which would have books that I was interested in. He got an attitude. I had cooled down and was fine. He was pissed. He said I treated him like a child. I told him he pissed me off, there were many warnings that I was getting more and more mad and he just kept right on. He said it was a joke and suppose to be funny. I agree it was the first 5 times but he just kept on and on and I kept telling him to stop with more and more tone in my voice. Finally he had gotten the idea. When we got to my work I had to rush in soon. I gave him a hug and let him hold me for a minute. Then was ready to go and he asked for another hug. That wasn't as comfortable but when I got into work I was in much better spirits and had a great time.