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Feast or famine. Why is it that life toggles between the two? A year ago, when I started a relationship, I had two women that were perfectly willing and able to date me. Eventually, I ended up deciding between the two, but for a while, I dated both. One knew about the other, but the second didn't know about the first. Oddly, I chose the one that I could only see about once a week because of the way we had more fun together. This may seem silly, having a relationship with someone who lives 45 minutes away instead of someone who lives 5 minutes away. What can I say, sometimes things don't make sense.
This year, I don't have that kind of choice to make. I don't have several women beating down my door to date me. I've been on a few dates with a wonderful one, and I'm sure we'll go on more, but I'm not sure what will happen.
It's interesting that I always seem to be in a difficult position. In the first position, I was in a deciding role: it was up to me to choose a path. However, regardless of the decision that I made, I would end up hurting someone. In the second position, I'm along for the ride. Regardless of the outcome of this situation, I am happy. I have a good life, a full one. I don't have to worry about money. I have a job that pays well, and is even rewarding at times. I wish that I had someone to share it with, but for now, I will have to be content.
It's strange how life works out sometimes. As a child, I got picked on. As an adult, that taught me compassion. As a child, not everything worked out in my favor. That taught me to try to work with what I have. As a child, I cried. That taught me the wonderful healing power of laughter. Not everything that I experienced before has turned into a positive trait now. I've been hurt before. Sometimes that makes me gun-shy. When faced with an impending disappointment, basically there are two options: you can panic and worry, or you can try to turn it around. It seems strange that anyone would choose the first route, however, many of us see the possibility of failure as already having failed. Anything worth having is worth working for. Anyone who believes that the best things in life come without any work is seriously mistaken. For now, there's nothing left to do but extend my hand and hope that it doesn't get smacked away.
This year, I don't have that kind of choice to make. I don't have several women beating down my door to date me. I've been on a few dates with a wonderful one, and I'm sure we'll go on more, but I'm not sure what will happen.
It's interesting that I always seem to be in a difficult position. In the first position, I was in a deciding role: it was up to me to choose a path. However, regardless of the decision that I made, I would end up hurting someone. In the second position, I'm along for the ride. Regardless of the outcome of this situation, I am happy. I have a good life, a full one. I don't have to worry about money. I have a job that pays well, and is even rewarding at times. I wish that I had someone to share it with, but for now, I will have to be content.
It's strange how life works out sometimes. As a child, I got picked on. As an adult, that taught me compassion. As a child, not everything worked out in my favor. That taught me to try to work with what I have. As a child, I cried. That taught me the wonderful healing power of laughter. Not everything that I experienced before has turned into a positive trait now. I've been hurt before. Sometimes that makes me gun-shy. When faced with an impending disappointment, basically there are two options: you can panic and worry, or you can try to turn it around. It seems strange that anyone would choose the first route, however, many of us see the possibility of failure as already having failed. Anything worth having is worth working for. Anyone who believes that the best things in life come without any work is seriously mistaken. For now, there's nothing left to do but extend my hand and hope that it doesn't get smacked away.