Incompleteness
Today was just one of those days...
There were highs and lows. High being I didn't have to work for 3 hours at Big Trees and Jessi's birthday which was fun and made me feel like I was 7 for a few hours (in a good way).
Then there was the self-reflective part of my brain that always sneaks around and gets me feeling down. As the day progressed, I began to analyze things deeper, panic more, and become more affected by things that depress me. I don't like that. But I just can't help but feeling that way.
It's complex to put into words, mainly because I personally can't quite put a finger on it. Maybe it's because I'm leaving next year, maybe it's because my heart's been broken (again!), maybe I'm just confused about what my goals are. Whatever state it is, it sucks.
There were highs and lows. High being I didn't have to work for 3 hours at Big Trees and Jessi's birthday which was fun and made me feel like I was 7 for a few hours (in a good way).
Then there was the self-reflective part of my brain that always sneaks around and gets me feeling down. As the day progressed, I began to analyze things deeper, panic more, and become more affected by things that depress me. I don't like that. But I just can't help but feeling that way.
It's complex to put into words, mainly because I personally can't quite put a finger on it. Maybe it's because I'm leaving next year, maybe it's because my heart's been broken (again!), maybe I'm just confused about what my goals are. Whatever state it is, it sucks.