slight let-down
I had some issues today. I know this seems hardly the note to update anything worth of substance in the past few weeks, but fuck protocol. Something just struck me the wrong way today, and I still don't know what it was, but before I knew it I was crying and having a minor breakdown in TOK. It was pretty miserable. I would have at least thought I can be strong at school, the one single environment that I am completely capable of taking on. I just can't take being surrounded by really bright people all day, talking about colleges and SAT's, I just want the whole experience to be over. Only when I get that acceptance letter, (the exact one I want), will I be able to release the slightest breath of relief. Until then, my mind will play sick, twisted games and continue to torment me and every other senior in America until that letter does come (whether I like what it has to say or not). I apologize if this entry seems a little self-righteous and selfish, but I've just had a bad day and need to rant at someone. And I still can't believe Mr. McIntyre saw me cry, that's like, the ultimate worst. He's the last person I want to show my vulnerability to. Sucks.