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Why are boys so good at making me feel guilty? It's like they know exactly what to say or do and boom, I'm feeling like a giant jerk and the word 'regret' starts floating across my mind.
But I don't regret. I frequently go on guilt trips but I don't regret.
I feel torn inside. It has nothing to do with what I just said about guilt. It's different. It's his fault I feel like this. It's like he led me down this path blindfolded. When we got to the end, I take off the blindfold and find myself alone. He knows what he's doing, he's not dumb, but where is it leading? I can only see myself ending up sad and alone.
The only problem is, that I like this path. I like that he's leading me. I don't want to think about the end of the journey. I'm having too much fun. What should I do Nathan? I know you know what I'm talking about. It's dumb right? I should just stop all together and save myself.
Maybe it's too late to turn back.
But I don't regret. I frequently go on guilt trips but I don't regret.
I feel torn inside. It has nothing to do with what I just said about guilt. It's different. It's his fault I feel like this. It's like he led me down this path blindfolded. When we got to the end, I take off the blindfold and find myself alone. He knows what he's doing, he's not dumb, but where is it leading? I can only see myself ending up sad and alone.
The only problem is, that I like this path. I like that he's leading me. I don't want to think about the end of the journey. I'm having too much fun. What should I do Nathan? I know you know what I'm talking about. It's dumb right? I should just stop all together and save myself.
Maybe it's too late to turn back.