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So today I ordered my iPod. I'm very excited for it to get here because I am SICK of not having my iPod, especially these last few days where I have to be in school doing things but I really want to escape in my music. Of course I will be done with school by the time I get my iPod and then I won't be using it probably until NEXT semester but whatever.
Did I mention I got a new ring? I love it. I smile every time I look at it.
Josh started bugging me this morning. He kept sending me text messages early and I was literally replying to one of them when I got another one asking "Are you there?" It got a little frustrating. I've told him a million times I don't get service in any of my classes including studio and he never gets all clingy like this. I think he felt bad because he hasn't talked to me for a few days but this really isn't going to make up for it. It was just annoying because I walk out of lecture and I get service and like 5 messages pop up and he's asking why I'm not talking and what I'm doing, am I still in class, how is my day, what am I up to... etc.
But now he's online and I've been making an attempt to talk to him but I'm getting nothing in response. Whatever, he just confuses me.
Tonight was my birthday dinner. It was alright, my mom's friend invited herself over and I thought it would be ok but I forgot how much my mom changes around her and I don't like what she changes to.
I don't know how conceited this is going to sound but I'll say it anyway.
Your birthday is the ONE day a year where the day is supposed to be about you. It's the day that people are supposed to think of you for a reason, talk to you for a reason, and it is a day where you are supposed to celebrate your existence. Having a birthday that came and went so unnoticed made me feel so sad and really uncelebrated. I guess when you get older it's ok to not celebrate but I'm only 20 and I've ALWAYS celebrated my birthdays and this birthday really made me feel so incredibly sad, lonely and small.
I don't know how that sounds but June 2nd has always been my day. The day where I get positive attention and unlimited smiles and people celebrating that I'm here and breathing. It was just very sad when I realized June 2nd has become like any other day. I didn't have my day this year. Maybe I'll have it next year.
I won't even talk about how I feel about turning 20. No, I won't go there tonight.
Tomorrow is the last day to finish my work in my etching class. Tuesday is my last day for business and Wednesday is my last day for photo 3. Scary, scary and terrifying. I'm scared I won't pass photo 3. I'm scared I won't finish my plate for etching. I'm not really worried about business.
I have nothing to do tonight, again. Usually I talk to Josh until I get too tired I can't keep my eyes open.
Oh, he just IMed me. Oof, I feel a fight coming tonight. Great.
Goodnight everyone. Nathan, I need to talk to you about a dream I had.
Did I mention I got a new ring? I love it. I smile every time I look at it.
Josh started bugging me this morning. He kept sending me text messages early and I was literally replying to one of them when I got another one asking "Are you there?" It got a little frustrating. I've told him a million times I don't get service in any of my classes including studio and he never gets all clingy like this. I think he felt bad because he hasn't talked to me for a few days but this really isn't going to make up for it. It was just annoying because I walk out of lecture and I get service and like 5 messages pop up and he's asking why I'm not talking and what I'm doing, am I still in class, how is my day, what am I up to... etc.
But now he's online and I've been making an attempt to talk to him but I'm getting nothing in response. Whatever, he just confuses me.
Tonight was my birthday dinner. It was alright, my mom's friend invited herself over and I thought it would be ok but I forgot how much my mom changes around her and I don't like what she changes to.
I don't know how conceited this is going to sound but I'll say it anyway.
Your birthday is the ONE day a year where the day is supposed to be about you. It's the day that people are supposed to think of you for a reason, talk to you for a reason, and it is a day where you are supposed to celebrate your existence. Having a birthday that came and went so unnoticed made me feel so sad and really uncelebrated. I guess when you get older it's ok to not celebrate but I'm only 20 and I've ALWAYS celebrated my birthdays and this birthday really made me feel so incredibly sad, lonely and small.
I don't know how that sounds but June 2nd has always been my day. The day where I get positive attention and unlimited smiles and people celebrating that I'm here and breathing. It was just very sad when I realized June 2nd has become like any other day. I didn't have my day this year. Maybe I'll have it next year.
I won't even talk about how I feel about turning 20. No, I won't go there tonight.
Tomorrow is the last day to finish my work in my etching class. Tuesday is my last day for business and Wednesday is my last day for photo 3. Scary, scary and terrifying. I'm scared I won't pass photo 3. I'm scared I won't finish my plate for etching. I'm not really worried about business.
I have nothing to do tonight, again. Usually I talk to Josh until I get too tired I can't keep my eyes open.
Oh, he just IMed me. Oof, I feel a fight coming tonight. Great.
Goodnight everyone. Nathan, I need to talk to you about a dream I had.