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Once again it's been forever since i last posted. surprise surprise with my schedule.
Happy new year, to anyone who actually might still read this (i doubt anyone does).
My vacation was actually good... no major fights with the mom, which (!!!) extremely surprising. things were good though. just a few gifts under the tree, some good food, and lots of love. my aunt is doing much better. her last surgery went very well, and her skin is healing beautifully. another year and a half and she'll look like her old self... no scars!
Work has been great! had to replace another RA :( i'll miss my anna leigh. but in a surprise twist i hired her sister, which might seem suspicious to others, but i don't care. out of my choices she turned out to be the one that wanted it, who impressed me, and who was completely qualified. my evaluation at the end of last semester was superb. apparently i'm amazing {bow}.
With graduation rapidly approaching, i have SO much to do. got all As last semester, and i need to keep it up in the home stretch. between work, classes, research (ack!!) AND my online courses, i'm going to be quite busy. Then on top of the academics...
Job searching. that's right! me... job searching.. can you believe it? i've been pretty lucky so far getting to stay here at ESU, but now i have to venture out (don't worry, i'm applying to ESU as well). without my car this is going to be uite difficult though.
Recently i've evaluated the people i have in my life. it's been enlightening to realize who my true friends are... the ones who have surprised me by becomming reliable friends, or acquaintences who have become more, and good friends who apaprently think the world of me and i honestly had no idea. i've also realized those who aren't true friends... those who i've grown apart from. and i guess that happens. it's part of growing up. and of course i still have my BFFs, and they mean the world to me regardless of the others.
In regards to the male species (i knew you were curious), i've surprised myself in falling for someone who i have liked before, but for some reason, this idk.. third time around?.. it's different. for one, it's beyond any social complication. for another, our relationship is so well established at this point i have no fear that if rejected, our friendship will reamin in tact. which is a relief for me, because, we all know how well that's worked for me in the past. i've decided however, this time, to take a step back. let him come to me. if it's meant to be he will. if not.. someone else will. and i'm ok with this situation because i don't need to obsess over his feelings for me and sit and wonder all day long if her likes me. i know he likes me, he respects me, he trusts me, and he makes me feel special. now whether any of those feelings has the possibility of becomming something romantic? time will only tell.
my goal for the new year is to write more. despite the fact that i'm ridiculously busy, i miss writing. whether it's blog, poetry, or one of the many novels i'd like to one day write and publish... i am going to do it. for me. because it makes me happy. and i believe i deserve some happiness.
Happy new year, to anyone who actually might still read this (i doubt anyone does).
My vacation was actually good... no major fights with the mom, which (!!!) extremely surprising. things were good though. just a few gifts under the tree, some good food, and lots of love. my aunt is doing much better. her last surgery went very well, and her skin is healing beautifully. another year and a half and she'll look like her old self... no scars!
Work has been great! had to replace another RA :( i'll miss my anna leigh. but in a surprise twist i hired her sister, which might seem suspicious to others, but i don't care. out of my choices she turned out to be the one that wanted it, who impressed me, and who was completely qualified. my evaluation at the end of last semester was superb. apparently i'm amazing {bow}.
With graduation rapidly approaching, i have SO much to do. got all As last semester, and i need to keep it up in the home stretch. between work, classes, research (ack!!) AND my online courses, i'm going to be quite busy. Then on top of the academics...
Job searching. that's right! me... job searching.. can you believe it? i've been pretty lucky so far getting to stay here at ESU, but now i have to venture out (don't worry, i'm applying to ESU as well). without my car this is going to be uite difficult though.
Recently i've evaluated the people i have in my life. it's been enlightening to realize who my true friends are... the ones who have surprised me by becomming reliable friends, or acquaintences who have become more, and good friends who apaprently think the world of me and i honestly had no idea. i've also realized those who aren't true friends... those who i've grown apart from. and i guess that happens. it's part of growing up. and of course i still have my BFFs, and they mean the world to me regardless of the others.
In regards to the male species (i knew you were curious), i've surprised myself in falling for someone who i have liked before, but for some reason, this idk.. third time around?.. it's different. for one, it's beyond any social complication. for another, our relationship is so well established at this point i have no fear that if rejected, our friendship will reamin in tact. which is a relief for me, because, we all know how well that's worked for me in the past. i've decided however, this time, to take a step back. let him come to me. if it's meant to be he will. if not.. someone else will. and i'm ok with this situation because i don't need to obsess over his feelings for me and sit and wonder all day long if her likes me. i know he likes me, he respects me, he trusts me, and he makes me feel special. now whether any of those feelings has the possibility of becomming something romantic? time will only tell.
my goal for the new year is to write more. despite the fact that i'm ridiculously busy, i miss writing. whether it's blog, poetry, or one of the many novels i'd like to one day write and publish... i am going to do it. for me. because it makes me happy. and i believe i deserve some happiness.