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I am... such a lucky girl :).
For the last... year and a bit... i haven't felt very talented. I've felt rusty, lame. Lacking new ideas, lacking inspiration, lacking everything.
Last night me and my bro were talking about how I get all the attention musically in my family, and I said I'd rather be more talented and understated than less talented and overplayed, and he said I was insane if i thought i wasn't talented.
It was just so... passionate! Like it just popped out of him and I knew he meant it! Especially because he likes to insult me most of my life haha.
It made me happy at the moment, and then I crawled into bed, and I thought about it and... I just started crying. Because I HAVENT felt talented in SO long. And it's weird because I always was haha. But I've been like a bump on a log lately, and just... to hear it from my brother, meant so much, and it made me feel like, creating! It made me feel like I could. I mean... I think part of the drive to do it, is to FEEL talented! Who wants to do something when they feel like they aren't good at it?! So I'm starting on a new path of appreciating my talents. Tell myself everyday I am talented :).
P.S. I may or may not have imagined my Oscar best screenplay acceptance speech talking about that exact moment when my brother ignited my fire again hahah. Ohhh my :D.
For the last... year and a bit... i haven't felt very talented. I've felt rusty, lame. Lacking new ideas, lacking inspiration, lacking everything.
Last night me and my bro were talking about how I get all the attention musically in my family, and I said I'd rather be more talented and understated than less talented and overplayed, and he said I was insane if i thought i wasn't talented.
It was just so... passionate! Like it just popped out of him and I knew he meant it! Especially because he likes to insult me most of my life haha.
It made me happy at the moment, and then I crawled into bed, and I thought about it and... I just started crying. Because I HAVENT felt talented in SO long. And it's weird because I always was haha. But I've been like a bump on a log lately, and just... to hear it from my brother, meant so much, and it made me feel like, creating! It made me feel like I could. I mean... I think part of the drive to do it, is to FEEL talented! Who wants to do something when they feel like they aren't good at it?! So I'm starting on a new path of appreciating my talents. Tell myself everyday I am talented :).
P.S. I may or may not have imagined my Oscar best screenplay acceptance speech talking about that exact moment when my brother ignited my fire again hahah. Ohhh my :D.