home sweet home?
Well i'm back home now, and it feels like i never left. My parents are as critiscing as ever, and am now on a strict health regime, that includes tablets to abosrb any fat that i eat.
On the other hand thought things are looking up, ive havent had to spend any money on food or rent, and ive even managed to get a new job at woolies. It's not all that but at least its in potters bar and i dont have to pay travel expenses.
My rents have been kitting me out, so im 'decent' with new clothes, shoes, and underwear, and im getting my haircut soon, dunno what i want done tho.
Things with dan... things are edgy i suppose, he's staying with dean in wormly which is hard for me to get to on the buses, well its not hard, its just long and expensive. As expected my parents dont want me seeing him and are making things as awkward as possible.
although i miss dan i think this is a good oppurtunity for the both of us, he needs to learn how to look after himself, and i need to get some of my own life back. I havent spoken to some of my old friends for over a year, and ive never had the money to spend on myself, or the time to enjoy all the girly things us girls like doing. so hopefully, this will give us both the change we need to change. all im worried about is that im gonna be changing, but dan wont and we'll end up drifting apart...
i feel pretty lonely atm, all i really have is my rents which is why im trying not to piss them off too much. i figure that all i have to do is get through the summer, then when im back at uni, ill be seeing friends, doing work, working at woolies and seeing dan that it wont bother me as much if i piss them off, becasue i wont be needed them as much, ill just be sleeping here if im not with dan.
i just hope things start working out for the better for a change.
On the other hand thought things are looking up, ive havent had to spend any money on food or rent, and ive even managed to get a new job at woolies. It's not all that but at least its in potters bar and i dont have to pay travel expenses.
My rents have been kitting me out, so im 'decent' with new clothes, shoes, and underwear, and im getting my haircut soon, dunno what i want done tho.
Things with dan... things are edgy i suppose, he's staying with dean in wormly which is hard for me to get to on the buses, well its not hard, its just long and expensive. As expected my parents dont want me seeing him and are making things as awkward as possible.
although i miss dan i think this is a good oppurtunity for the both of us, he needs to learn how to look after himself, and i need to get some of my own life back. I havent spoken to some of my old friends for over a year, and ive never had the money to spend on myself, or the time to enjoy all the girly things us girls like doing. so hopefully, this will give us both the change we need to change. all im worried about is that im gonna be changing, but dan wont and we'll end up drifting apart...
i feel pretty lonely atm, all i really have is my rents which is why im trying not to piss them off too much. i figure that all i have to do is get through the summer, then when im back at uni, ill be seeing friends, doing work, working at woolies and seeing dan that it wont bother me as much if i piss them off, becasue i wont be needed them as much, ill just be sleeping here if im not with dan.
i just hope things start working out for the better for a change.