slit thou soul to the vein
im glad, for a moment im happy but i know it will be gone soon, but all i can do is remember this moment and remember that my life hasnt been all to bad, but a persons actions can never be fully predicted and to all my friends i am sorry but i feel as if i must pull a disapearing act for a time because im tired of being who everyone thinks i am, last year and years before i used to take out my anger , vent it on something or another but, people began to believe i was insane and i hated it i hated people thinking i was insane, ill admit i have dilemas but it was nothing serious, un til this year. this year i did not vent i just took everything and stored it inside my mind just so people wouldnt think i was nuts that i could have a succesful relationship and all of which ive came to the concusion that i cant have such things, so far this has been the most painfull year, with people pushing my buttons just to try and make me lose my temper to a person telling me a second time after once again assuring me that they did love me and want to be with me and all that fluff you get with a relationship, she said she loved me and gave no reason for me not to believe her so i did, im not saying she didnt im saying she didnt know what it meant and shes gone..and theres someone she likes i dont know who but its also not my place to find out who so im gonna quit keeping tabs on her and just let her go, if she comes back ill be there for her , and ill always be there for her but i wish her the best and it hurts to let someone go , espasialy someone you love but if you really care- you can care enough to realize what there wishes are and abide by them and im not in hers so ill withdraw goodbye oh yea and thank you very much to my friends who sit here and read this, thank you , you all mean alot to me