wow...where to start...

[squirrels101]

i guess im still back at the beginning of everything..but i have/tried to figure out where out i belong...

here am i.
25 years old..the youngest of four..
trying to throw my father a better 6oth b day party
my sister is yet to have her youngest..
still..
as of last week..still..
party cancelled..

i went through alot of work..
dad tell's me after he know's that he knows i tried.

the only one that tried..the only one that doesnt feel like i belong because i dont have any kids...yes josh doesnt have any kids..but thats not expected....

then josh calls me to pay for our dinner with dad and a present..fine..you make more than me in a week...whatever..
he's having money trouble.

awesome..ill bale you out..like i do all the time...

so thats where i am at..
so called planning a great birthday for my dad gone to shit.
now im taking him to dinner on friday and then family dinner on sunday..
not the same..

you know what..i dont know whats going on with my family..but I (yes me) tried to do something good for my dad..and i just got so much shit thrown in my face..