Jul 17, 2008 14:37
"No bullshit. Straight up rock and roll."
My friend Eli said that once as he slid in a Naked Raygun cd into the cd player of his car. I smiled. That is awesome, I thought to myself. For weeks those words seemed to almost haunt me. I finally asked him one night. What did that mean? Is it on that cd, like a lyric or something?
Nope.
That's just what he thought they were. No bullshit. Straight up rock and roll.
The phrase has always stayed with me. I always thought it would be cool if I were in a band and after we stepped on stage I say that into the mike before our guitars begin to blaze. Or if before all the movies I make, the phrase would appear on the screen, having nothing to do with the plot, just a kind of warning. The first page of every novel I would write would have the phrase written.
A kind of mantra. A kind of dare to myself. Just do it. Don't think. Just do it.
I been scared for way too long it seems. I surveyed the battlefield and decided that some fights were more important than others. I put it off. I put it off. I was scared. I am scared.
So here I am. No job yet. No friends yet. Nothing to do but wait till she gets home. She's so great and she's so patient. She's my everything.
Stop being scared. Stop thinking about it so much. Just fucking do it. I dare you.
I will dare.
No bullshit. Straight up rock and roll.