i feel like updating because no one freakin writes about their lives anymore except brian dinh
and now I have nothing to say.
ok wait, i do. i find myself feeling like i should take a stand sometimes and say what i feel at the moment, but then i don't know if it's appropriate. and by the time i figure that i should say something, the momentum is gone. should i say something to the idiot employee at great america who is deliberately moping around and making me wait forever in line for garlic fries when there are only two people before me? or is it rude? when a bitchy sales lady repeats something to me sharply in chinese just because i didn't understand it so well the first time, should i tell her she has no manners and that her boss should consider firing her? i seriously don't know if it would be "rising above it" to keep quiet or if it would be wimping out. maybe i just need to tell them off in a nicer way. i think i'll just go with impulsive but polite.
i will be a stronger person. yes, someone who doesn't mumble an answer just to repeat it again because it wasn't heard. i need to be surer of myself. some would call it confidence, but that seems contradictory to me. the dichotomy of my ego is puzzling... sometimes i get such a feeling of superiority that someone should whack me in the head..but sometimes i get too submissive for my own good. luckily, i'll have the rest of my life to analyze my pshychological mannerisms.
ok wait, i do. i find myself feeling like i should take a stand sometimes and say what i feel at the moment, but then i don't know if it's appropriate. and by the time i figure that i should say something, the momentum is gone. should i say something to the idiot employee at great america who is deliberately moping around and making me wait forever in line for garlic fries when there are only two people before me? or is it rude? when a bitchy sales lady repeats something to me sharply in chinese just because i didn't understand it so well the first time, should i tell her she has no manners and that her boss should consider firing her? i seriously don't know if it would be "rising above it" to keep quiet or if it would be wimping out. maybe i just need to tell them off in a nicer way. i think i'll just go with impulsive but polite.
i will be a stronger person. yes, someone who doesn't mumble an answer just to repeat it again because it wasn't heard. i need to be surer of myself. some would call it confidence, but that seems contradictory to me. the dichotomy of my ego is puzzling... sometimes i get such a feeling of superiority that someone should whack me in the head..but sometimes i get too submissive for my own good. luckily, i'll have the rest of my life to analyze my pshychological mannerisms.