its the end of the wrold as we know it and i feel fine
im so confused.
im starting to feel nonstalgic about high school, yet at the same time im really starting to look forward to the little things that will come with college.
we got a packet of papers at school describing in detail how the graduation ceremony will go and about the events in the weeks leading up to it. reading over all that made the truth hit me like a ton of bricks. in just over 2 months, i will be out of there for good. its a very good feeling, yet its sad at the same time. the letter explaining the ceremony told us which 4 teachers will read the names and greet us as we leave the stage. those teachers are chosen by student recommendations. luckily my four choices were all chosen: haynes and smith will be reading names while biddle and percifield will greet us as we leave the stage. we then proceed to our seats by traveling through two roms of all our teachers from the past 4 years. i feel like im going to cry just thinking about it so i know i'll bawl when the day comes. im definently going to miss haynes the most. *sigh*
at the same time, im so looking forward to next year. uf is going to be a great experience. the little things are what will make it awesome. matthew of course will be there with me through it all and i most look forward to share it all with him. sitting in rehearsal i realized that ill be with totally different people, doing totally different shows by totally different directors. it will be so refreshing. and more than likely, matthew and i will be in shows together. even though it is usually highly suggested that actors do not date other cast memebers, i think it will be a good experience. i look forward too to the thought of spending at least some time of each day with matthew, having a routine that involves him in more than just a nightly phone call. we wont argue as much and our physical relationship will improve. being that we only see each other about once a month, all those feelings build up and what would be sufficed by simply holding hands during the day on a regular basis, pushes us to suffice it all through other means that we wish to stop. *sigh* life will improve. i know it will...
im starting to feel nonstalgic about high school, yet at the same time im really starting to look forward to the little things that will come with college.
we got a packet of papers at school describing in detail how the graduation ceremony will go and about the events in the weeks leading up to it. reading over all that made the truth hit me like a ton of bricks. in just over 2 months, i will be out of there for good. its a very good feeling, yet its sad at the same time. the letter explaining the ceremony told us which 4 teachers will read the names and greet us as we leave the stage. those teachers are chosen by student recommendations. luckily my four choices were all chosen: haynes and smith will be reading names while biddle and percifield will greet us as we leave the stage. we then proceed to our seats by traveling through two roms of all our teachers from the past 4 years. i feel like im going to cry just thinking about it so i know i'll bawl when the day comes. im definently going to miss haynes the most. *sigh*
at the same time, im so looking forward to next year. uf is going to be a great experience. the little things are what will make it awesome. matthew of course will be there with me through it all and i most look forward to share it all with him. sitting in rehearsal i realized that ill be with totally different people, doing totally different shows by totally different directors. it will be so refreshing. and more than likely, matthew and i will be in shows together. even though it is usually highly suggested that actors do not date other cast memebers, i think it will be a good experience. i look forward too to the thought of spending at least some time of each day with matthew, having a routine that involves him in more than just a nightly phone call. we wont argue as much and our physical relationship will improve. being that we only see each other about once a month, all those feelings build up and what would be sufficed by simply holding hands during the day on a regular basis, pushes us to suffice it all through other means that we wish to stop. *sigh* life will improve. i know it will...