Leaving Japan
So in two days, I'll be leaving Japan.
And I really wanted to have a whole long post about who I'll miss, what I'll miss, and how much I've learned since being here and whatnot, but at it stands, I'm just kind of left feeling numb. I'm excited to see my family and friends and home again, but at the same time I can't imagine leaving everyone and everything that I've come to know over here.
It's so different from when I first came. Before leaving America, I was nervous and excited and unaware of what was going to happen. But now, leaving Japan, it's a completely different set of feelings -- pain and longing for what I know I'm going to miss, leaving what I've come to know and love behind. So it's hard, and I can't quite deal with it. I don't think I'll be able to really deal until I'm home for a while and have established myself in America again.
And if I don't cry like, EVERY DAY for my host family, who I love and adore and want to take home with me, I'll be surprised. But even though I'm not sure if I'm ready to come home, I need to, and I'm looking forward to it despite how hard it is. :) I'm sad and already missing Japan, and I'll probably have a hard culture shock when I get back, but I'm still excited to go home again. It's time for this story in Japan to close, at least momentarily, and it kinda hurts, but I'm dealing. :)
Megan, my host family is ready for you now. :D (no, seriously, they're already talking about you and stuff. I AM SO QUICKLY FORGOTTEN WOE ;__;)
And I really wanted to have a whole long post about who I'll miss, what I'll miss, and how much I've learned since being here and whatnot, but at it stands, I'm just kind of left feeling numb. I'm excited to see my family and friends and home again, but at the same time I can't imagine leaving everyone and everything that I've come to know over here.
It's so different from when I first came. Before leaving America, I was nervous and excited and unaware of what was going to happen. But now, leaving Japan, it's a completely different set of feelings -- pain and longing for what I know I'm going to miss, leaving what I've come to know and love behind. So it's hard, and I can't quite deal with it. I don't think I'll be able to really deal until I'm home for a while and have established myself in America again.
And if I don't cry like, EVERY DAY for my host family, who I love and adore and want to take home with me, I'll be surprised. But even though I'm not sure if I'm ready to come home, I need to, and I'm looking forward to it despite how hard it is. :) I'm sad and already missing Japan, and I'll probably have a hard culture shock when I get back, but I'm still excited to go home again. It's time for this story in Japan to close, at least momentarily, and it kinda hurts, but I'm dealing. :)
Megan, my host family is ready for you now. :D (no, seriously, they're already talking about you and stuff. I AM SO QUICKLY FORGOTTEN WOE ;__;)