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Today was one of my bad days. Sometimes I have days where I'm overwhelmed in how much I suck. I just can't get over all of the things I've said or done to make people feel bad. I feel soo much guilt over things I wouldn't notice if someone said to me, but I can just see how other people take it in. It was around 10 and I was driving to my parent's house to get some stuff and I was just in this cloud of self hatred and darkness. Luckily I had my running shoes. When I got to the rent's, I changed clothes (also had a change of workout clothes) and went on a really hard run. It was soooo satisfying. I have been longing for a run like that.
Although, my negativity isn't gone. It feels different though. It doesn't feel like a cloud anymore. Now it feels tangible, like something I can deal with. Something I can handle.
Although, my negativity isn't gone. It feels different though. It doesn't feel like a cloud anymore. Now it feels tangible, like something I can deal with. Something I can handle.