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Hello friends.
Im tired.
And angry.
It's raining.
Cool.
How did I know that once I started making money for myself I'd only have to shell it out and support him too?! I mean come the hell on. He already gets the majority (now the entirity) of my social security. But now I also have to front money I work for. Money I need in order to, oh I dont know, GET A GOD DAMN CAR... or something. I got a job to support ME and the things I NEED. Not to support him and his wants. Although, I have no choice because right now, Im forced to depend on him for a ride anywhere I need to go. Between a rock and a fucking hard place. And then he wonders why I want to leave as soon as possible and go as far away as I can. And the fact that all of this is, in turn, upsetting someone that I care a lot about only makes me that much more angry.
It really pisses me off to a point that I have never been to in my life. NO one has driven me this far, and I never expected it from him. Just goes to show, people aren't always who you think they are, even if they are family. Im trying really hard to just suck it up and deal because I can't handle that drama right now, and I sure as hell can't just leave, but god fucking damn.
Grr.
**EDIT** (3:47pm)
But, I have the best boyfriend in the world. ♥
ciao.
Im tired.
And angry.
It's raining.
Cool.
How did I know that once I started making money for myself I'd only have to shell it out and support him too?! I mean come the hell on. He already gets the majority (now the entirity) of my social security. But now I also have to front money I work for. Money I need in order to, oh I dont know, GET A GOD DAMN CAR... or something. I got a job to support ME and the things I NEED. Not to support him and his wants. Although, I have no choice because right now, Im forced to depend on him for a ride anywhere I need to go. Between a rock and a fucking hard place. And then he wonders why I want to leave as soon as possible and go as far away as I can. And the fact that all of this is, in turn, upsetting someone that I care a lot about only makes me that much more angry.
It really pisses me off to a point that I have never been to in my life. NO one has driven me this far, and I never expected it from him. Just goes to show, people aren't always who you think they are, even if they are family. Im trying really hard to just suck it up and deal because I can't handle that drama right now, and I sure as hell can't just leave, but god fucking damn.
Grr.
**EDIT** (3:47pm)
But, I have the best boyfriend in the world. ♥
ciao.