Today=pooey
I hate it when my friends have to move away from me. I guess it's all a part of life, and I realize it's better for her but still. I loathe it because it hurts. But then I feel selfish and bleh. It's odd though. I feel worse about this one leaving than I do about another one leaving. Maybe because the other's left before and it just can't hurt anymore? Or maybe it's because though we're still close, we're very far apart as well. Or maybe it's because I just plain grew up. Maybe all of the above. Who knows. All I know is Im going to miss her more than ever, and hair school will never be as fun as I'll remember it being. Ever. But I'll see her again, just not soon.
Other than that I suppose today was pretty boring and normal. Im still in this funk where everything is iffy. Like, I dont feel like talking to people, and then I feel like talking their ears off. And it's also when I get really paranoid about relationships and such. I hate those moods. They're very emotional and bleh that's never fun.
The weather is warm and I like it.
I need to finish the laundry and shower.
I think I might be frustrating him and Im not trying to.
Sometimes its hard to keep my emotions under control.
I really feel for him, and Im a little afraid, I'll admit it.
I miss him insanely too, while we're on that topic.
I feel so bland. I need something new, and something fun about me. Something random and spontaneous.
At least the birthday surprise is coming along nicely. I hope he appreciates it as much as I want him to.
Ugh.. maybe I'll go read.
Who really knows.
Ciao.
Oh, and I read this today. It was coincidental on many levels, and made me smile inside.
"true friendship continues to grow
Even over the longest distance
Same goes for true love."
Other than that I suppose today was pretty boring and normal. Im still in this funk where everything is iffy. Like, I dont feel like talking to people, and then I feel like talking their ears off. And it's also when I get really paranoid about relationships and such. I hate those moods. They're very emotional and bleh that's never fun.
The weather is warm and I like it.
I need to finish the laundry and shower.
I think I might be frustrating him and Im not trying to.
Sometimes its hard to keep my emotions under control.
I really feel for him, and Im a little afraid, I'll admit it.
I miss him insanely too, while we're on that topic.
I feel so bland. I need something new, and something fun about me. Something random and spontaneous.
At least the birthday surprise is coming along nicely. I hope he appreciates it as much as I want him to.
Ugh.. maybe I'll go read.
Who really knows.
Ciao.
Oh, and I read this today. It was coincidental on many levels, and made me smile inside.
"true friendship continues to grow
Even over the longest distance
Same goes for true love."