she puts the weights into my little heart...
time to update...i like this whole live journal, especially since only one person has read it...thanks mari. but i like venting and having someone read my on going rants about nothing. i actually put my lj on my AIM profile for a second but took it off immediately! i thought i wanted anyone to read it, but im not ready for that yet. there would be too many critiques. ill let the masses read it when im good and ready...and right now im, neither. but to update, the first week of school has come and gone. it went by as fast as i expected. it may have something to do with the fact that im only taking 12 hours...again!!! lol, so i only have 3 classes on mwf, and ONE on tues and thurs. but i like it this way, im in no hurry to graduate...cause we all know what comes after graduation, the "real world". sidenote: i cant wait for "real world" philly to start, should be fun. highlights and lowlights from the first week of school, well first i ended up having a good friend for political science, so thats great, i have someone to talk to (and copy from). lol, i guess thats the only highlight. as for low-lights.......american fiction will kick my rear, it has wayyyyyyy too much reading and i dont know how ill do, we'll see......then in astronomy, i got one of my friends kicked out of class and i felt horrible, i just felt like a complete asshole. but he said it was ok and that made me feel a lot better. and that sums up my first week. then on the weekend we saw the exorcist, its decent, youll be scared for the first half, then youll just kinda snooze thru the second. then on saturday i hung out with a friend that i hadnt talked to in quite a while, so that was cool. we went to starbucks and just chatted for about an hour or so. it was good, she had a lot to say over my usual (venti iced chai) mmmm, i could go for one rite now, i swear. then today was cool, we had a small get together for my dad's birthday which is creeping up soon. and that sums up my entire week!
as for my overall mood as of right this very second (which may change as soon as i click on the update journal button)is feeling just alrite. life is just alrite, ya know? i cant complain, but things could certainly be better. specifically speaking on my non-existing love life...non-existant by choice tho. i think i want a girlfriend, but im so picky that its not even funny, and to be honest "she" still prevents me from moving on, by doing nothing too!! its crazy. im just afraid of finding someone and then having that certain someone like me again!! even tho that chances of that happening are extremely small as of rite now, considering i havent spoken to her in almost 2 months. yea that really sucks, thats the longest weve gone without contact since we met. and i get the urge to just pick up the phone and talking to her (cause i love talking to her) : ) but then i think to myself, "why bother, mario?" i mean really, as much as i love talking to her, im about 87% sure that the feeling isnt mutual, so i wouldnt want to bore her with all this redundant chit chat that i have. so as of now, i guess im just letting it be, you know, like the beatles song! let it be, let it be. hopefully, we can get to talking someday soon, i just wish i wasnt so stubborn, and so attached, and so lame and so hopelessly in love and so.....i cant think of anything else. but i just wish i wasnt those things, life would be easier, at least i think so. but its things like this that keep my life just interesting enough........
question of the nite....does love have to be mutual?? ive always thought that it has to be, but now, i dont know.
well thats all i have, lol, have fun reading this mari! and you better read it too.....maybe, just maybe ill let someone else read this too. unlikely.
IM OUT!
as for my overall mood as of right this very second (which may change as soon as i click on the update journal button)is feeling just alrite. life is just alrite, ya know? i cant complain, but things could certainly be better. specifically speaking on my non-existing love life...non-existant by choice tho. i think i want a girlfriend, but im so picky that its not even funny, and to be honest "she" still prevents me from moving on, by doing nothing too!! its crazy. im just afraid of finding someone and then having that certain someone like me again!! even tho that chances of that happening are extremely small as of rite now, considering i havent spoken to her in almost 2 months. yea that really sucks, thats the longest weve gone without contact since we met. and i get the urge to just pick up the phone and talking to her (cause i love talking to her) : ) but then i think to myself, "why bother, mario?" i mean really, as much as i love talking to her, im about 87% sure that the feeling isnt mutual, so i wouldnt want to bore her with all this redundant chit chat that i have. so as of now, i guess im just letting it be, you know, like the beatles song! let it be, let it be. hopefully, we can get to talking someday soon, i just wish i wasnt so stubborn, and so attached, and so lame and so hopelessly in love and so.....i cant think of anything else. but i just wish i wasnt those things, life would be easier, at least i think so. but its things like this that keep my life just interesting enough........
question of the nite....does love have to be mutual?? ive always thought that it has to be, but now, i dont know.
well thats all i have, lol, have fun reading this mari! and you better read it too.....maybe, just maybe ill let someone else read this too. unlikely.
IM OUT!