face up and sing!
things things things and stuff stuff stuff
I did send off a decent chunk of change ($) to my new FINANCIAL PLANNER!
Because my/our life is a damn train WRECK
And the bottom line
Is and really has always been
Money managing and we suck at it and we are getting old and its time for GOALS and arms to be stretched out reaching for um’ time
I feel like with this “age” I and even sum sees the goals clearly no more, what should I do, what should I do, its now
H o w d o I g e t t o m y g o a l s !
Guess what, I have the most amazing perfectest therapist in all of the entire world.
Ive been sick this week and working and im tired on that
Moms is stopping by today
I wish I was on vacay.
See she told me to wait
To be particular about my stressers
To focus on the good
The big task
And that slowly but surely
The rest will fall into place
My worrying cant will things to change
She talked of meds
I talked her down
Meds are for death times not “hard times” per say
Im getting through this, these here hard times
Im getting stronger through this
Through the tears
And moans and shakes
I can feel myself growing
Not taller
But taller in a sense
Taller and stronger in my mind
More able
More ready
Despite the pain
In my shoulders traveling down [my] back
Never leaving
I feel good about this
Reaching and climbing over 30
Is hard times y’all
But hard in a different more focused
Way but still hard
Still looking
But not looking in the sense
Of something is lost
I feel very found
Very here
Very sturdy in my wants
Just gotta get there
Just gotta get there
I have some 143 thoughts (ha)
Im really liking the sound of Laura Gibson A LOT
Its been nice to have amy connect with me again in some ways
Im sorry im slow on the uptake, slow on my EMOtions, slow on change,
Im a creature of change
I think
Or im trying to be
Ive learned so many new things about me
I just…wow
I did send off a decent chunk of change ($) to my new FINANCIAL PLANNER!
Because my/our life is a damn train WRECK
And the bottom line
Is and really has always been
Money managing and we suck at it and we are getting old and its time for GOALS and arms to be stretched out reaching for um’ time
I feel like with this “age” I and even sum sees the goals clearly no more, what should I do, what should I do, its now
H o w d o I g e t t o m y g o a l s !
Guess what, I have the most amazing perfectest therapist in all of the entire world.
Ive been sick this week and working and im tired on that
Moms is stopping by today
I wish I was on vacay.
See she told me to wait
To be particular about my stressers
To focus on the good
The big task
And that slowly but surely
The rest will fall into place
My worrying cant will things to change
She talked of meds
I talked her down
Meds are for death times not “hard times” per say
Im getting through this, these here hard times
Im getting stronger through this
Through the tears
And moans and shakes
I can feel myself growing
Not taller
But taller in a sense
Taller and stronger in my mind
More able
More ready
Despite the pain
In my shoulders traveling down [my] back
Never leaving
I feel good about this
Reaching and climbing over 30
Is hard times y’all
But hard in a different more focused
Way but still hard
Still looking
But not looking in the sense
Of something is lost
I feel very found
Very here
Very sturdy in my wants
Just gotta get there
Just gotta get there
I have some 143 thoughts (ha)
Im really liking the sound of Laura Gibson A LOT
Its been nice to have amy connect with me again in some ways
Im sorry im slow on the uptake, slow on my EMOtions, slow on change,
Im a creature of change
I think
Or im trying to be
Ive learned so many new things about me
I just…wow