Control freak
I have calmed down alot since last time I wrote but I am still not over it at all.. Analyzing all the time... I am beginning to feel like I am afraid of living or sucess (I think that is spelt incorrectly) or something. I am scared of changes I never want to do anything I can not take back.. scared of rejection so i never try... I am scared to even cut my hair and that grows back... But Aimee and I will be getting tattoos sometime in august and this is not becuase devin got one .. It is connected but I have been planning this for over 10 years and I think that is long enough to think about it.. If I have not changed my mind yet then I should be finished thinking.
I had a very weird coversation with the manager at work today. One of her friends got a diamond appraised by a guy in our building becuase he is trying to sell it. so when the appraiser brought it back she was jokingly trying to sell it to me. I was like I am not interested in getting married and if I was I would want a little skull and crossbones ring maybe with tiny diamond eyes, that one is way too big. I dod not realize that I have thought about this. still not that interested in marrige.. what is the point?? either you love someone and want to be with them or not. what buisiness of the goverments is that??
I had a very weird coversation with the manager at work today. One of her friends got a diamond appraised by a guy in our building becuase he is trying to sell it. so when the appraiser brought it back she was jokingly trying to sell it to me. I was like I am not interested in getting married and if I was I would want a little skull and crossbones ring maybe with tiny diamond eyes, that one is way too big. I dod not realize that I have thought about this. still not that interested in marrige.. what is the point?? either you love someone and want to be with them or not. what buisiness of the goverments is that??