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Isn’t it strange...
that I want to do some of the stuff that I didn't wanna do a few years ago? The difference time makes! I remember I confused some when I said I was the antithesis of a self-aware robot, meaning simply I felt more like a robot than a human, and I wanted to be more like a robot so I wouldn't have to deal with feeling and emotion. Now, I still don't necessarily like those things, but I think they kinda make me wanna abandon my observationist's post and...participate in life. Probably mostly for the experience but experience it nonetheless. I'm now the self aware robot who realizes that they are more than their robot counterparts, but less than their human counterparts, who wants to be human, is frustrated by inabilities and limitations, and trapped by the futility of their desire. Fuck, and I'm human already! Imagine how that robot must feel!! Well I don't have to to some extent for various reasons, but still. I've still got this human streak that someone painted on me and I gotta learn how it functions. Its not in my Jetbot 3000 manual.